The Fray - Never Say Never

One of the comments posted about this song in songmeanings.net

DistantNFaded [February 7, 2009]

"This is how I see this song, only because of the current situation going on in my life. I think it may be about a girl who is walking out of his life. They have been friends forever, but never became anything more. "Some things we don't talk about, rather do without and just hold a smile" They each have been "falling in and out of love" but either way, they have remained close. But something changed, he wants something more then just that friendship. Maybe she has actually found someone to spend the rest of her life with, even though that other guys isn't right for her and it made him realize. He believes "you can never say never" hoping that they will be together one day. He proceeds to tell her how he feels. He says "picture you're the Queen of everything, far as the eye can see" because she thinks she holds the world in her hands at the moment, but he knows eventually she has to realize that other guy isn't right for her. He continues to say "I will be your guardian when all is crumbling, I'll steady your hand." Meaning, he will always be there for her."

蘇永康 - 男人不该让女人流泪
William So Yong Kang - Nan Ren Bu Gai Rang Nu Ren Liu Lei

Transformer 2: Revenge of the Fallen


Yesterday (Jun 23), GSC showed the early screening of one of the most anticipated movies this year, the sequel of Transformer, Transformer 2: Revenge of the Fallen. Well, thanks to my friends for counting me in in their plans, I had the opportunity to watch the movie earlier than its intended screening which is today.

Allow me to give my two-cents about the movie. Overall, I would say the movie is entertaining (plot aside). For those who loves actions and lots of kung fu from robots, this movie is a definite must for you. But behind all those actions and kung fus, the movie doesn't really have much to offer except the hot hot hot Megan Fox, lol.

I have to applaud the director for the start of movie. The chaos in Shanghai, the introduction of a few new autobots, it does make the audiences bite their teeth and keep them in the suspense mode especially the threat uttered by the Decepticon, "the Fallen shall rise again". However, since that, the movie becomes extremely draggy.The bloody annoying mum who whines a lot, the unsignificant dad who adds nothing to the plot (as usual), and the suspicious hot chick that tries to seduce Sam. It is pretty obvious that certain scenes from the suspicious hot chick chasing after Sam and Megan is somewhat an imitation or resembles those from Terminator 3: The Rise of the Machines. And the curious thing is, since when Decepticons can transform and imitate a human, or rather a hot chick.

There is also a lot of unnecessary humor injected into the movie. Examples such as the mum getting high on drugs and starts to crap, Agent Simmons with his line "remember what I did for my country, the country that betrayed me". The middle part of the movie is also rather long in their quest to find the Matrix of Leadership. But soon after they recovered it, the movie starts to get alive again with all those robots fighting one another. The movie also has a few moments of its own where it connects with the audiences emotion such as the fall of the Optimus and the scene where Sam was injured and unconscious.

By all means, I am no movie critic or reviewer. I am just sharing my two-cents about the movie. Out of a rating of 10, it certainly deserves an 8 despite all those shortcomings in the movie. My comments, Like: the action, the thrill and the robots; Dislike: the unnecessary scenes that made the movie too long and that about it. By the way, I love the soundtrack too, Linkin Park's New Divide.

MSN (8.55 PM, June 22) - CK | Who wants to go out and get a few buckets of beers?

MSN (11.30PM, June 22) - CK | Who wants to go out and get a few buckets of beers? | Finally, someone answered my call.

MSN (4.42AM, June 23) - CK | Just reached home. Still bloody awake. I need to go out more often.

Between the night of June 22 and the wee hours of the morning.
An invite to Jerry's condo to have some beer, chit chat and relax.
Simon was kind enough to give me a lift.
Once there, we played games
Ping, pong ... PIANG!!!
Interesting as it is... the game got better once everyone starts to get a lil tipsy.
We have people who ping themselves.
Then the same person again to pong themselves.
And people who piang their neighbors and forget to surrender. (Me included)
All and all, it was damn fun.
As stated through my MSN nick, reached home at 4.42am.
Bathed... and that's it. Went to bed about 5.20am,
the hour mum woke up
She was rather stunt that I was still awake and very fresh. Hahaha...
I wonder if I told her that I just woke up, maybe she would have believed me...
LOL. I'll save that for next time. Slept like a pig and woke up at 8.55am.
Not bad, even if I have a class at 9am
I think I can reach college by 9.20am, hahahaha... (the biggest lie of all)
Took breakfast, blogging now...
and I'll be back in bed in another few more minutes. Hahahaha...

MSN (8.55am, June 23) - CK | Nonsense... I love my bed... I wanna sleep more

What do you call an occasion or event that your family organize once a year, every year? Tradition?

Well, this occasion or event is held within my family once a year usually during the local fruit season every year and has already lasted for generations inherited from my forefathers. If I'm not mistaken or if I'm not making up stories, this tradition originated from Thailand (forgive me if I'm wrong) which may be explained as my forefathers descend from Thailand.

This occasion or event is more like a prayer to a guardian/protector. A few rules/requirements of this prayer is that no pork (and I mean NO PORK!!!, lol) is allowed and fruit offerings of durians, rambutans, mangosteen and cemphedak is a MUST; then there is the nasi kunyit with wonderful chicken curry and pulut with inti (grated coconut cooked with thick black sugar) and those daun rokok (I'm not sure what its called) like the ones people offer to "datuk kong". Well, the concept is similar to prayers to "datuk kong" except that the prayer has to start in the afternoon... say 3.30 pm or so. Something different is that we don't use joss stick but rather candles, red-coloured candles to pray (you can see them in the pics later).

I hope I didn't break any rules for taking pics (sorry if I did). Durians, so many durians. Rambutans, mangosteen and cemphedak. Sadly, I dun take any of those fruits. (Dad, if you're reading this, but that is very unlikely... "you spend so much on durians and eat them like ice-creams, but I don't know how to eat durians and I don't intend to learn. Can you please be fair, and buy some Haagen Daaz or Baskin Robbins next year so I get to eat something too while watching you guys take durians". LOL.

Easily 35 durians overall. Might have cost dad a couple hundreds.
Names like ang heh(red prawn), kay nui jin(egg?) and what "kum poh*"

Mangosteen, cemphedak and rambutans

Right: Nasi kunyit with chicken curry | Left: Pulut inti

Picture during the prayer at granny's house. (notice the candle)

As I blog about this, I wonder if I still get to be with my family to celebrate this event next year. The future lies uncertain, I might be in Aus, probably KL or some other places next year during the fruit season.

Plurk.com

9.47 pm<> "ck_a_student wants to slack and laze around. TIRED OF EVERYTHING..."

I am very tired of the never ending presentation and assignment. I am very tired thinking about friends leaving Malaysia. I am very tired thinking about what to do next after diploma. I am very tired thinking of which Uni or U/C to join. I just wanna kick back, slack, laze and relax.

I wanna go out. Hang out with friends. Go for outings day or night, it doesn't matter. Venue, not an issue. Be it to the beach, or to clubs. I just wanna spend every remaining time I have in Penang with friends and my diploma course mates. Duration, not a problem. Whole morning, whole night, whole day. 6, 12 or 24 hours. Skip class, not an issue. Money, I will get all the funds I need from Mom. AND FOR ONCE, I am going to hang up my bike key and helmet. I'll drive for a change.

Looking forward to Tuesday (error corrected, Monday is not 23rd). Transformer 2: Revenge of The Fallen at GSC. Wednesday too. Jeff's birthday. Going to be a crazy night. Gonna get drunk and wasted. Hahahaa... Meanwhile, friends ar... plan la... more plans... but count me in okay. LOL. Screw college and exam and assignment and presentation.

The ABSURDITY in KDU College Penang Campus has just reached its maximum.

Come this June 22, which is about a week or so from now, ALL KDU STUDENTS are required to wear the student card, (okay... they prefer us to call it the "smart cards") ; students are required to wear their smart cards on their body for the purpose of identification due to the recent rise in theft cases in the campus. The reasons they gave to implement such a stupid yet childish method was that to protect of course not only the student's assets and belongings but also those belonging to the college.

So... one would probably wonder why I am so pissed at such move being made compulsory by none other than the head or principal of KDU College Penang campus, Dr Chong Beng Keok. First and foremost, to implement such move will require the involvement of all faculties and schools within the campus. Albeit being able to make it compulsory for the employees of KDU to obey such rules (or they will get the boot if they disobey, personally witnessed such cases before [insubordination]), to think rationally, are they able to make it compulsory to the 3000 students in that campus. (3000 is just a rough estimation). Even though if they manage to make it compulsory, what can they do to make the students obey such idiotic rule. Discipline is another issue but to have students being penalised or even brought to a hearing for not wearing his/her "smartcard" which I prefer to call it the DOG TAG, still wouldn't bring much effect in making students obey. Come on, let us be honest to ourselves. Fellow coursemates and friends who read my blog, I think as teenagers, we are somewhat rebellious and the more "mature" adults want us to do something, we always end up doing the opposite. Hokkien people also have a saying-la, "chiak nui boh chiak theng". Though I'm graduating and leaving the college soon, with my limited ability to forecast, the possibility of the rate of success of this rule being fully implemented and fully obeyed is not zero (due to the KDU employees ma) but will never reach 50%. Well that is just an optimistic projection from a student with limited ability to do a forecast.

Next. How successful can this rule help in curbing the theft cases in campus? Come on, if the rule is not going to be effective in solving this cases or even preventing new cases from happening, why bother wasting time to implement it. Why start something so absurd and soon after not being able to achieve success with it, just shuts the whole thing down and walk off with shame. Well, maybe that is the way KDU College Penang Campus operates (Oops!!!). If the students are required to wear the card, haven't the management or the principal figure out that outsiders can simply duplicate the card. Don't you guys agree? Duh!!! Wearing those smart cards, I wonder if there is going to be anyone who will be bothered to check the card you're wearing, whether the card belongs to you or your friends, or probably you are just a freaking snobbish s.o.b who could be wearing your Platinum AMEX card on your neck (plenty of such people in KDU). And KDU being KDU, the smart card is a business to them whether or not they see it my way. You lose the card, you can't enter the campus until you make a new card. Making a new card of course again cost you money. RM50.00 if I'm not mistaken. (Hey, I don't study Diploma in Business for two years and learnt nothing okay).

I swear I am going to end this rant soon. Just hold on and bear with me okay? Last but not least, did the management or college authorities or even the principal investigate the theft issue and find out the reason of it happening. That again brings me to the next question. WHAT THE HELL IS THE SECURITY PERSONNELS DOING? The purpose of hiring the security personnels (have high regards for them by not calling them guards which is so degrading to their profession) is to maintain order and safety in the campus. Their duty does not only confine to shoo-ing students away for parking their cars in front of the campus. By now you'll be asking yourself, "ya hor, what were the security personnels (guards) doing?" Well, if one sits at the front lobby for 15 minutes, you can witness strangers walking in and out of campus and these security personnels just sit their bumps on the bench provided. Okay, I hope I don't give you guys the impression that I am blaming the guards. I have no such intention at all. I am merely stating that it is within their duty and responsibility in trying to prevent such theft cases from happening INSIDE the campus which they failed, BADLY. So,... why penalise the students for something that they didn't do. Why are we made to wear the smart cards when we have done nothing wrong? To make it clear, I am not against the ruling... I am not sure how other colleges or universities operate. Perhaps they require their students to wear their IDs, but to make it compulsory now that theft cases are happening is such a disgrace to one of the premier colleges in Penang (not being able to catch the thief, we catch the students).

End of my rants for now. More to come this June 22 if I am forced to wear my DOG TAG. Sorry but I have no respect for the smart card or whatsover ID that we have in college. We, or maybe I believe that as adults, individuals we are very mature. Don't tell me or give me reasons such as you have to wear it at your workplace too in the future. I don't buy that. Allow me to apologize here too if I've offended anyone from KDU College Penang Campus, the principal included.

Students graduating, my friends... please make sure that you have completed all your MPW papers. You are required to fill in a form to claim your certificate or something like that. Please make sure you've settled all your payments. That's it. Nothing much to say. The final exam timetable will be uploaded into KCN soon and will be available for viewing at the notice board in front of the Business school. Thank you for your time. Its a pleasure to have my blog as the place where I can rant non-stop. Hahaha...

Like what my friend said
*for every progress that we try to make
we achieved nothing but more regression*

Think about it. Awesome isn't it?

Its been ages since I checked my mailbox.

At the request of some people, or maybe one person...
I went and click "like" on a friend's status in Facebook.
Fine, guess I was stupid as I received stupid mails from Facebook from doing that as so many people commented on that post.
Well, didn't took me long to delete all those junk mails.
I came across a few mails which are useful.

One from IDP.
One from CY.
One from Su-lyn.
One from Deborah.

IDP sent me a mail about the interview schedule which I haven't decided whether or not to attend.
CY's mail is rather interesting. Still couldn't figure it out. Why don't you help me... 12 or 13...?
Su-lyn's is pure humor. Some unique rendition of the famous and one of my favorite songs of all time, Hotel California by the Eagles. An Indian version called Hotel Kerala-fonia. Though the singer totally butchered the song, the least it could do was to bring a smile to my face and made me laugh for about 2 minutes...? hahhaha...

Deborah's mail was about an invite to join Plurk. It is something something la. Kinda interesting though with the time line and the status shout out. I guess I will not sign up now considering I was kinda stupid to join Netlog not too long ago, maybe 2 years ago which I never bothered to log in at all. LOL.

Another song to share here. Its Daniel Powter - Am I Still The One? And for the record... I am not the missing one or the extra one from the pic above. Hahaha...

Two days of fishing under the very hot sun.
Two unlucky days.
Stupid Saturday, I got stung.
Bad Sunday, a big fish managed to got loose;
and when I say big, I mean big.
Arghhh!!!

Sea condition was very choppy.
Imagine going through road humps on a car with no absorbers...
and the trip lasting for a lil' less than half an hour.
My body is falling apart.
My whole stomach was turned upside down
Organs inside my stomach all fell off their position
LOL...

One thing is for sure.
Explorers are good boats;
and when I say good, I mean really good.
Hahaha...

(spoken)
Girl you know we belong together
I have no time for you to be playing
With my heart like this
You'll be mine forever baby, you just see

(verse)
We belong together
And you know that I'm right
Why do you play with my head,
Why do you play with my mind?

Said we'd be forever
Said it'd never die
How could you love me and leave me
And never say good-bye?

Girl I can't sleep at night without holding you tight
Girl, each time I try I just break down and cry
Pain in my head oh I'd rather be dead
Spinning around and around

Chorus:
Although we've come to the end of the road
Still I can't let you go
Its unnatural, you belong to me, I belong to you
Come to the end of the road
Still I can't let you go
Its unnatural, you belong to me, I belong to you

Girl, I know you really love me,
You just don't realize
You've never been there before
Its only your first time

Maybe I'll forgive you, hmm
Maybe you'll try
We should be happy together
Forever, you and I

Girl, you love me again like you loved me before
This time I want you to love me much more
This time instead just come to my bed
And baby just don't let me, don't let me down

Chorus:

(spoken)
Girl I'm here for you
All those times of night when you just hurt me
And just run out with that other fella
Baby I knew about it, I just didn't care
You just don't understand how much I love you do you?
I'm here for you

Im not out to go out and cheat on you all night
Just like you did baby but that's all right
Hey, I love you anyway
And I'm still gonna be here for you till my dying day baby
Right now, I'm just in so much pain baby
Coz you just won't come back to me
Will you? just come back to me

(lonely)
Yes baby my heart is lonely
(lonely)
My heart hurts baby
(lonely)
Yes I feel pain too
Baby please

This time instead just come to my bed
And baby just don't let me go

Chorus:

Chorus (a cappella)

WHAT WAS I THINKING?

WHY DID I DO IT?

IDIOT LA ME....!!!!

ARGHHHHH!!!!!!!!

Another CK's strange but true fact... believe it... or not.

Do you practice what you preach?

Well, I've been thinking a lot lately. I've been thinking of where I was 2 years ago, where I am today and where I might be in the future. I've been thinking of what I was doing 2 years ago, what I am doing today and what I am going to do in the future. I've been thinking a lot of who I was 2 years ago, who I am today and who I am going to be in the future. Then all these question brings me to one very funny question. What did I do best in the past 2 years?

Hmm... what did I do best in the past 2 years? If there one thing I do best at college and at home, its talking. Hahaha. Laugh all you want but seriously, that is the one thing that I do best. Talk and talk, preach and preach. I talk some sense but most of the time, I talk nonsense. I talk about what is right and what is wrong. I talk about the pros and the cons. I talk and talk and talk, I am just like a broken record that continues non-stop. Okay, all these leads me to another question.

Do I practice what I talk? Do I practice what I preach? A lil' embarrassed, the answer is No. I don't practice what I talk nor what I preach all the time. Sometimes, the principles in life that we hold so dearly to seems to limit what you can and cannot do. But that is another the issue. The issue is that I have to constantly remind myself to talk less and probably I'll embarrass myself less. At the end of the day, no matter how good you are in talking... we have to consider the burden. The weight carried by those who suffer is always heavier than the weight carried by those who talk.

Here we go again, and you see I am talking non-stop again. Well, long story short. All I trying to say is walk the talk. Don't talk a lot (like me) and let all the words and principles go down the drain. Strange but true. Have you asked yourself if you ever did something which contradicts with what you talk or preach? Hmm... isn't it like always. Hahaha... We always rationalize our actions to make it deemed fit to what we talk.

There are many facts in our lives. Some of the facts are just undeniable, unquestionable. Some are just plain truth. But this one is different. Its strange. But then, what is stranger that the human mind. The human mind and brain is the strangest and most complex subject in this planet. What do you have to say about this fact?

Most of the time, we make those who care for us cry.
On the other hand,

we often cry for those who won't and never will care for us.
Worse still...
The ones we care about are those that won't and never will cry for us.


Hmm... what do you think? Sounds like what you're going through now?
Well this is CK... strange but true... believe it... or not.. hahahaa...

As I've posted earlier, I have a sudden fondness to Cantonese songs. So... considering that this is the end of the week, I just wanna share an emo? maybe not? not sure Cantonese song with you guys. Its by Gigi Leung. The title is ... errr ... po' bu' de` yi or... the meaning in english is having no recourse? I am not sure la. You go check out the song.

Been really busy these few days...

Assignments... presentations... they just keep on coming. It's as if they are never ending. LOL.

Didn't have a good sleep for days now. It's been like 2 maybe 3 nights of rolling on the bed, staring at the ceiling blankly and that continues for hours before I can actually fall to sleep.

Been on a downloading spree. Downloaded 4 albums in just one night. Just had that sudden fondness to Cantonese songs. For your info, the 4 albums downloaded are all works of Gigi Leung. Hmm... always know she is an actress but didn't know that she can sing pretty well too.

Okayla... that's it. Can't talk much, back to the assignments.

The most embarrassing event struck me this morning. Arghhh!!!

Alright, I head down to college at about 10 am to get a lecturer's cellphone number for one of my friends who is in Singapore now. Everything went smoothly; I got the cellphone number and as I was heading back to my bike (I walked through the cafeteria), I met two of my previous lecturers. For your info, they are not from the Business School. You should have an idea which department they are from.

Alright, part two. I swear to God there was no one behind me. There was some people using their laptop facing outwards to Le' Cafe. The lecturers were taking a break and as I was walking, both the lecturer was waving their hands. Initially, I thought it wasn't me. Fine. I ignored them. Then they continued to wave towards me. I felt really weird. Walk towards them and as walk towards them, they were smiling at me. Fine. I ask them, did you waved at me? " No, I was waving at another guy..."

Hmm... now I really look like a fool. Thank god there was no one at the cafeteria and even if there was a few students, they were minding their own business. I was rather pissed off. I should have just walked away. Arghhh!!! I think they were playing a prank on me. Idiotic lecturers. Anyway, I shall get over it. Misunderstanding. Miscommunication. LOL.

After that incident, I head down to Pulau Tikus and went to IDP. Seek some advice and opinion from them. Well, for a non-fussy guy like me who has no freaking idea of which Uni he wants to go to, it totally mess things up. The consultant recommended a few Unis, a few ... which is about FIVE. LOL. Curtin, Adelaide, Tasmania, South Australia and Queensland(techno). Now that is a really broad option. I don't care where I end up as long as the degree is good and preferably I can get a scholarship or some sort of a discount on my tuition fee.

Well, the consultant did made a point, it doesn't really matter much which Uni I choose (since based upon her observation I'd fit in well in any of those Unis), its just a matter of finding the Uni that fits me perfectly. Haiz, headache. I am back to square one, where I started 2 years four months ago. At the end of the meeting, I went back home with loads of thick brochures. Madness, I think I might just drop the idea of heading overseas for my degree. The idea seems so sweet, so tempting... but then its such a hassle. I might just forget about it, and I'd be lucky if I get to reach KL. LOL.

Anyway... that's it for now. Until I update on my future, my bleak future... this is CK who was totally embarrassed by this morning's incident. Chao...

James Blunt - Tears and Rain

How I wish I could surrender my soul
Shed the clothes that become my skin
See the liar that burns within my needing
How I wish I'd chosen darkness from cold
How I wish I had screamed out loud
Instead I've found no meaning

I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain

How I wish I could walk through the doors of my mind
Hold memory close at hand
Help me understand the years
How I wish I could choose between Heaven and Hell
How I wish I would save my soul
I'm so cold from fear

I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble
Far, far away; find comfort in pain
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain

Tired.

Fishing trip to Pantai Kerachut.
Sadly, the catch isn't that good.
Reach home at 6.55pm... was damn hungry,
Took dinner and here I am blogging.

One particular incident happened today.
Made me reminisce about the past.
Years ago, when I was a kid...
You owe me the respect that I deserve
But it seems like you'll never give it to me...
Even up till today, I am who I was years ago,... a kid.

Call me rude, I won't disagree...
If you can throw insinuations at me, and I can take it...
I see no reasons why you can't take a few from me.
Again, call me rude... but I won't disagree.

Its the end of another week.
Here is a song for everyone to cool down, and just rest their mind.
Its The Show by Lenka.

Yes.

There is nothing I wouldn't do for you,
But there is really nothing that I can do.
Perhaps I'll never get over you
So I'll wait, for there is nothing left for me to do.

Yes.

I wish you'll understand me.
I beg you'll never hate me.
I pray you'll never let go of me.
I hope you'll never allow yourself to get over me.

Yes.

I know my odds of getting there.
Fighting the fate that confines me
I pray and hope that I'll be there
For there is nowhere I'd rather be.

If only I could find a more fitting song to embed together with this post, it has to be Jewel - Leaving on a jet plane.

You have found your love for a way of life.
She on the other hand found love for a place.
What about me? I have yet to found anything in life.

What should I do next?
Where will I be in 3 months time?
How will I feel there?
Who is there to guide me?
When is all these going to end?

That aside...
I've been receiving messages from someone.
Someone who calls him/herself, my friend.
But sadly "my friend", I don't know who are you?
Would you at least kindly give me a name?
and gender, (I am not gay, I am straight).

Friends who read my blog.
Your help and assistance is needed.
If, any of you know this person
using the cellphone number;
012-4762687
Please inform me.
I would really want to meet this "friend".
Thank you.

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you
but make allowance for their doubting too,

If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don’t deal in lies,
Or being hated, don’t give way to hating
And yet not look too good, nor talk too wise:

If you can dream - but not make dreams your master,
If you can think - but not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two imposters just the same;

If you can bear to hear the truth you’ve spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build them up with worn-out tools

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it all on one turn of pitch-and-toss
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;

If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on, when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: “Hold on!”

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings, yet not lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much,

If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds’ worth of distance run
Yours is the Earth and everything in it,
And, what is more, you’ll be a Man, my son!

Joseph Rudyard Kipling

My 100th post.

I am going to ask myself this question
The question is directed to all of you too

Are you happy?

What is gonna make you happy?

Is it how you look?
or the car you drive?
the people you know?
could it be money?
popularity? fame?
power? accomplishments?

Well, am I happy?
No.
I have all those things and I don't feel its enough.

Well then, what is gonna make me happy?
I think its love.
Love for someone else,
could be for a place or
a way of life of even for a family;

But how I find it;
where I found it
its all up to me.
And the same goes out to all of you.

The past 6 months,
has been the toughest period for me;
I don't know what to do, where to go
Perhaps its time for me to face the fact
Time to seek my true calling.

(The questions I posted were taken from
OTH S05E01, Brooke Davis)

This is not my 100th post. Its one short... its the 99th post.

Well, I've been blogging about my stupid lame life for quite sometime now, for about 6 months and I do really wonder if anyone does drop by to visit. LOL.

Anyway, for my 99th post, it is going to somewhat similar to my very first post in this blog. I wouldn't say that I got drunk last night for I didn't vomit. I would rather say I was very high. Very very high indeed but I soldiered on and yes, I survived. It has been quite sometime since I drank that much, be it liquor or beer.

It was a night full of indirect slander and jokes, but we shrugged that aside for we are brothers (I am the youngest) . A night full of card games and dares coupled with challenges, never knew you could have so much fun with playing cards. It continued until 3 something in the morning. Soon, they dropped me back home and I slept at about 4 in the morning.

Well, everyone pretty much had their own agenda and problem. Some were there merely just to have fun. Some were burdened with family problem. I, I was deeply troubled by my own problem. Last night, or should I say yesterday marks more than 3 weeks since the "Errr???Huh???" post and I kept to my promise and only one friend knows what was the promise all about. Well, after last night...

I woke up at 8:30 in the morning. I am still pretty sleepy. The "sensation" from last night is somewhat still there. I am still pretty much dizzy. LOL. I got to go now to get more sleep... chao...

I am going to be dramatic.

God took away my eyesight when I was in Standard 1. I could still remember the day, I was called by the Ministry of Health officials and directed to go to the General Hospital. Being a kid back then it was scary, but what was scarier was the jokes, the pranks they played on you. Well I survived that. Its the past now.

People who invented contact lenses gave me back my eyesight today. The feeling of having a true and clear vision without the help of spectacles, glasses was so high. It was almost like my dream came true, to eliminate one of my greatest weakness. I thank those who invented contact lenses.

I'm very happy today. Despite getting to only wear the lenses for only 4 hours today, have to take them out in another 3 hours, I am happy. I am glad finally I had a chance to try on contact lenses. Well, maybe falling into the sea and to lose my specs is a blessing in disguise.

By the way, for those of you who joked that I will dig my eyes out, sorry to disappoint you. Haha. I managed to put the lenses in within 3 minutes. Taking out wasn't that difficult either. Hehehe...

Is it getting better
Or do you feel the same
Will it make it easier on you
Now you got someone to blame

You say
One love
One life
When it's one need
In the night
It's one love
We get to share it
It leaves you baby
If you don't care for it

Did I disappoint you?
Or leave a bad taste in your mouth?
You act like you never had love
And you want me to go without

Well it's too late
Tonight
To drag the past out
Into the light
We're one
But we're not the same
We get to carry each other
Carry each other
One

Have you come here for forgiveness
Have you come to raise the dead
Have you come here to play Jesus
To the lepers in your head
Did I ask too much
More than a lot
You gave me nothing
Now it's all I got
We're one
But we're not the same
We hurt each other
Then we do it again

You say
Love is a temple
Love a higher law
Love is a temple
Love the higher law
You ask me to enter
But then you make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what you got
When all you got is hurt

One love
One blood
One life
You got to do what you should

One life
With each other
Sisters
Brothers

One life
But we're not the same
We get to carry each other
Carry each other

Haizzz...

I am back but not in perfect immaculate condition. Mind you first, there could be typo errors in this post. I lost my specs. How did I lose it? The stupid CK saw a cuttlefish swimming beside the boat, reached out his hand and tried to grab it but he caught no cuttlefish; instead he fell into the sea. Blooommm, CK fell, next moment he got up back into the boat and there goes the specs.

What next? Got scolded lo. RM500 dropped into the sea. There goes my first specs with Nikon lenses. Back home, got lectured lo. To worsen the situation, I have no spare specs. How are? Blind lo. I am blind now.

Considering that I am blind now, was wondering... if there are anyone who is willing to lend me their eyes for a few days? Hahaha... Okay okay, just be my eyes for a few days, don't have to lend me. LOL...

A day full of motoring...

It was a pretty boring day. Weather was fine and decided maybe I should have one those solo ride all around Penang Island again. Set out at about 10:30 am. Areas covered, Batu Feringgi > Teluk Bahang > Pantai Acheh > Teluk Kumbar > Batu Maung > Jelutong > Fort Cornwallis > Gurney Drive > Tanjung Bungah reaching home at 12:30 noon; A trip which I believe to be about 100 kilometres. The fun, undescribable. The thrill, out of this world.

Top speed I managed to reach on the highway along the coastal line, 150km/h. Fastest speed around the bends in those scary roads after Teluk Bahang dam, 80km/h. Roads discovered, roads that I use less than 3 times a year, 50 kilometres. Don't mind the scorching sun, the dust, the insects... verdict: Penang is one beautiful state. There is something special about it.

Anyway, I love the bike, I love the sound it makes, the way it handles. Its old and its aging, but I'm proud to say that it is still my bike and I love every bits of it.

Back home, took lunch, bathed and went for an afternoon nap. Woke up at 4:30pm. Decided that since I've nothing to do, might as well just visit Top Gear UK's website and watch the videos posted. Jeremy Clarkson is an arse but he is one great person, and he has one of the greatest job on earth. Richard Hammond is one funny guy and yes he is entertaining. James May is also funny, but he's funny because he is somewhat retard.

Challenges, a trip of almost 800 miles on a full tank of gasoline. Trips to the US to test the muscle cars. Comparisons between the Evo X FQ360 against the Sti WRX. Track laps by the Stig. Best of all, Top Gear in Vietnam where they had to travel from South Vietnam to North Vietnam, convert their vehicles into amphibious vehicle to reach a floating bar.

All and all, its a day full of motoring. Tomorrow, tomorrow could be a day full of fishing. Hehehe... that's it for now. Bye...

Jordin Sparks is back. This is her new single, Battlefield.

Hahaha... what better ways to just kick back and relax after an exhausting mid term exam than to watch this creative video (a must watch) and listen to the music. I couldn't stop laughing after watching it... LOL

Exam exam exam...

AE3's exam was retarded. So is the lecturer. In fact, there is nothing which is not retarded in that class.

International Business exam was not so retarded but still retarded. Why on earth must the MCQ questions be so difficult? Luckily, the lecturer is not retarded. Her tips are accurate minus ethnocentrism. LOL.

But nothing beats Malaysian Economics. Malaysian economics is the most retarded of all. The lecturer Parthiban S. Gopal is in fact the most retard lecturer in KDU business department. The notes are damn effing retard. So are the exam questions, retard.

I have better pass, preferably score in this midterms. Or else, I swear to God I'll tear down the college and murder all the lecturers in business school. Hahaha... the KDU massacre.

Just another song to share by Jazmine or Jasmine Sullivan. Its After The Hurricane from her album titled Fearless. Well, I think this is a really really nice song, and she sang it very well too. No hidden meanings here, just love the tune of the song.

What a lucky day today?

What a better way to start your morning by taking the good old Malaysian's favorite breakfast, the nasi lemak. The rice is cooked to perfection with coconut milk taken with the delicious spicy anchovies gravy on top served with banana leaves. Hmm... yummy. Well, that is what I thought too... until this morning. I vow that I'll never ever take nasi lemak for breakfast again.

Why? I was surfing the internet this morning when I took my breakfast and thank god I was eating very very slowly. I had finished almost half of the nasi lemak when I pushed the anchovies aside and found worms. WORMS. ARGHHH!!! That totally disgusted me. I immediately rush to the toilet, shove two fingers down my throat and bluak all of it. Hahahaha...

Okay that was a "pretty good" way to start the day. Next, after dinner... on the way back to the car... I stepped on dog poo. Arghhh!!! DOG POO... Sigh... I had to go clean my shoe and hop back to the car on one foot. Ish!!! What a lucky day...

Alright. A song to share. Its by Taylor Swift, Cold As You.

One more song for this week. Its Gabrielle from UK with Out of Reach.



Interested to know the meaning of the song? Well check out this link here below.

http://www.songmeanings.net/songs/view/52243/

The sea breeze was blowing lightly, the sky was drizzling, the sea was calm... we went out fishing at about 3 p.m today. No luck with fishing using rods and hand lines, we finally gave up and head back to shore to get some nets. Next, we caught some prawns, a few catfish and with the sun setting down at about 7 p.m, it was about time we head back. Reaching the beach, there were a few people who started to yell at us. Hmm...

There is a guy who is stranded in the middle of the sea. He was out wind-surfing but as the winds were too "gentle" coupled by strong currents, he drifted far away and is unable to head back to shore. So, it's up for us to the rescue. Hehehe. We had to find the guy before it gets too dark.

The White Boat has suddenly become the rescue ranger boat. Hahaha... With the newly upgraded Suzuki DT30 outboard motor, we found the guy in no time. He was drifting helplessly on his surf board. Pheww... the look on his face when he saw us. Ehh... we are not suppose to laugh at the misfortune of others. We pull him up into our boat, drag the wind surf and the board up and slowly headed back to shore. At last, everyone is safe and happy. Hehehe...

Wow... helping others really feels good. I can't imagine what I'll do if I'm in his position. Apparently, he went out on a canoe to rescue a female rookie surfer. He allowed the lady to actually canoe back while he will try to surf back. However, the rescuer ends up being rescued by us. Okay... I am gonna refrain myself from laughing again. We should not laugh at the misfortune of others. Hahaha...

Anyway, in this life, you reap what you sow. I went out for dinner at this place in Batu Feringgi. After dinner, we were waiting for our receipt and out of nowhere, the cashier was shouting and yelling at me. Then from nowhere, a guy came and push me away. Hmm... the guy actually saved my life. There was a big CENTIPEDE, or in malay LIPAN, which is EXTREMELY poisonous underneath the table. It was about 9 maybe 10 inches long. Geez... scared me to hell. They then killed that "thing" which almost killed me. Hooray!!! Everyone is safe and happy again.

Morale from this, do good unto others and maybe God might pity you. Hahaha... in Malay, buat baik berpada-pada, buat jahat jangan sekali.

Finally, CK has managed to snap out of his dream world. At last, after months, he finally realize that he has got to face the fact and move on with life. In this life, we can never get what we always want and what we always demand. If there one way a man can be successful in life, he has to be cold-hearted, persistent and never changes his plan. I, have made a plan for myself and I intent to stick to it. :)

I was recently tagged by a friend in Facebook. I was required to post 25 random facts, truth or statements. Hmm... easy? No... it is not easy. A few statements that I came up with are...

6. Keep your options open, but set your priorities straight.
22. It's not always about the outcome. The process is equally as important as well.
23. The last thing you wanna mess with in this world is not an angry bull, but a jealous woman.

Okay. Anyone who doesn't agree with me can begin to spam my chat box on your right now. Hahaha...

Like I have said, I have made plans for myself and to kick start that plan... why don't all of us stand up (take that lazy bump off the chair), and start laughing and dancing to this video from Youtube, Hippo and bully.

I am not sure of what's happening. I don't know what's got in to you. Somehow, if its my fault, then give me the opportunity to apologize. I didn't mean it. And come on, you know you can tell me anything.You know you can count on me...

This is Elliot Yamin's new song titled Fight for Love which I think is going to be chart topping. Remember his song titled Wait for You. Hmm... the new one ain't losing to the old one. Hehehe

I am not sure if I am emo or not, but there is feeling, this emotion that surrounds me now. I can't find words to describe it, I can't find examples to show it... all I know is I feel it. A simple click on a link... brings you this video which presents such a great talent and brings you back to 2 years ago, the time when you made one of the biggest mistakes in life.

Looking at a few of my schoolmates, and the time they spent at Disted College, it made me realize that I am such an introvert. I notice that I have lost the time I can't never recover... with the semester and my diploma ending soon, I regretted I join KDU. Maybe it's just me, and not all my coursemates. Somehow, I feel angry with myself at times for being someone so dull, so unexpressive; someone who never knew how to enjoy teenage life like a teenager... a person who is always serious and never know when to have fun.

I have to compliment this girl; this girl that I don't even know. I have to give praise to her talent with her skills in playing piano and singing. To be honest, she might just land herself a contract with a recording studio. The video her friend made to go along with her song, I salute that too. It was perfectly matching.

I don't own this video but I did spent like 30 minutes to do it. Its certainly not my property. I am just trying to share with you guys what true talent is. Info from friends said that this girl is of the same age as me. The emotion put into when she sang the song... I am sorry, but I have got to steal it somehow. You judge her singing.

Yet another weekend...

Another typical CK type of weekend, where he wakes up early at 6:30 am on a Sunday (crazy), takes breakfast early and head out to sea early to mess with the fishes. Haha. Yupz... it is those kinda weekends... those that I spend at least 10 hours out in the sea fishing and netting.

Anyway, it would have been a waste if its not those typical weekends. Imagine this... 8 kilos of threadfins, 1.5 kilos of mackerels and one really big white promfet. Hehehe... CK is grinning... So you'd probably wonder what we are going to do with those fishes. Hmm... what more can we do except to sell them off. Hahaha... and what does that mean to CK? Extra pocket money, more allowance la... hahaha (aiyoh, why you so slow eh) Hehehehe...

That is today. A happy day... What about yesterday? Happy day also la. Why? Hmm... nothing beats the feeling of having clean your own car or bike yourself. Yupz... I spend almost half a day cleaning up my Honda Revere. I was thinking I shouldn't be that lazy. If I could stay up all night cleaning people's mess, I see no reason why I can't spend a few hours cleaning up my bike. From the headlights until the wheels... the look of the shiny fuel tank and the sport wheels; it just brings upon a feeling of satisfaction. Riding the bike after you've cleaned also feels different. You feel proud mer of course... hahaha... what a cool and shiny bike... hahaha...

Lastly... to end this week... I am shouting out... "I'm a BIG fan of Kate Voegele", LOL. I don't know why... but I just love her songs. From You Can't Break a Broken Heart until Only Fooling Myself, and the recent single, Angel.

That's it. Enjoy the song... hehehehe... hahahaha...

At last I found you...

Finally, after months of searching, surveying... stupid phone calls to as far as Alor Setar... idiotic jargons, visits to motorcycle spare part shops from Tanjung Bunga all the way to those in Butterworth... I finally found where I could get the Maxxis tire. LOL... hahahaha. It is in Bukit Jambul.

However, I am facing a dilemma now. Should I get the Maxxis? It's not gonna cost me an arm and a leg. Its probably RM140 maybe 150, (the shop claims RM120, which I doubt). But then again, should I wait until at least the Duro is worn out first? That is gonna have me waiting for what, maybe another year since I only ride to college and back. I have this urge in me to swap for the Maxxis, I can't wait that long. Or... maybe... I can sell off the Duro? Which is pretty much what I am thinking about now. Hehehe...

Duro HF918 (110/70-17>54H) up for sale. Just give me a reasonable price, as long as you're not asking it for free (haha, cost me 160 when I fixed it), I will take it out and sell it to you. It is quite a good tire, I wouldn't consider to swap it for the Maxxis if it was in the right size. Sigh... I'm probably crazy. Who would want to buy a second hand tire? The shops doesn't want it. The mechanics doesn't want it.

After much consideration, I still can't make up my mind. The evil side of me might win. I might just swap for the Maxxis and where would the Duro end up, most likely in the store room for display, LOL. I don't know. Should I just waste money? Will the Maxxis offer more traction and grip both on dry and wet conditions? There are too many questions... I am a very technical crazy guy. Who knows what I'll do... We will find out next week if I actually swap for the Maxxis...


Will it be money well spent or money wasted?
Better performance? According to the specs, yea...
110/80-17 (PERFECT SIZE)
57 (Perfect weight rating)
V (Exceeds my requirement of H)

CK is back again... but the flu is still not away...

Arghhh... the flu is so stubborn... or maybe I am. Hahaha... for refusing to take any medicine, LOL.

Anyway I am here to post the song of the week. Maybe there're two songs, maybe three... could be four. To get things started, its Kris Allen, the guy from American Idol 8 with Falling Slowly.



Next is a soundtrack from the movie Chasing Liberty. Its Life Will Go On by Chris Isaak.

The third song is also from Chasing Liberty, its Caroline Lost with To Be With You.

Last but not least, its India.Arie with He Heals Me.

The weather these days are extremely hot.

My complaint is that I have fallen sick again. Flu. Its killing me. I can't breathe properly. I can't talk properly, my voice is very hoarse. I am very sleepy. Constantly, tears are running down my eyes... as if I am crying. When is all these gonna end???

Fun.

Yes, I hereby express my hatred towards power products from Yamaha Corporation. I don't know why, I hate their motorcycles. I don't really like their outboard motors. It has been twice that Yamaha outboards has failed me. I was almost stranded due to a misfiring engine previously with the Yamaha 15hp, and recently, the used Yamaha Enduro 30 also failed to leave a good impression.

I love Suzuki. From their motorcycles such as the great King of Four Stroke Mopeds, the FX125 until the Suzuki outboard such as the previously owned Suzuki 15hp and the new Suzuki DT30. The reliability they offer is unmatched. The power is addictive. Our Explorer F17 is now fitted with twice the horsepower. Yea... been out to sea for 3 days consecutively to test the engine, and hell yea I am loving every bits of it.

That's it for now until I provide an update for Sunday's trip to Pantai Kerachut. For now, it is CK blogging here with flu that is kiling him...

Professional Preparation Training

Hell yea I am enjoying Professional Preparation Training. What a great class. What a great lecturer to begin with, Mr Mark Stephan Felix. Informational, fun, entertaining, it's all what a great lecture should be. It is such a big loss to those who had to suffer PPT under Ms Lim. LOL.


Anger + Frustration

To be frank, I am extremely angry and frustrated now. The Malaysian Economics presentation is due tomorrow. My group, which was suppose to complete and hand in their parts to me for compilation on Sunday evening (a dateline which we all agreed on) unfortunately has yet to do so even up to today and to be precise, now. It takes up so much anger from me to utter such words. I REGRET. It is up till my last semester that I have to deal with this. I REGRET.

My greatest regret. I failed to see the reason behind it. I thought I was doing the right thing but the fact is the moment I made that choice, I had committed a mistake. I was proven wrong the following week. Sighs of exhaustion... its too much for me to handle. I should have joined... but I thought that a change is probably what I'll need for the final semester. Fact is, I don't need it. I don't want it. 'Don't fix what's not broken'... Damage is done. There is nothing I can do about it. I will just have to live on with this regret...

Finally, a phone call from Kelly Services. I've got work again. It was a torture. First time I had to work overtime until 9 pm. Bloody hell... all my energy was totally drained out of it. But who had ever said working is easy? LOL... CK shall hang on... Money is a motivator now. Hmm... something extra, a drained out CK... proves to be not so drained but rechargeable. Wonder how? A 15 minutes chat. (Maybe what drained CK out was not the work, but ... )

Guys and girls out there, it is not that difficult to show someone you care. Show concern while you still can, while you're still allowed to do so. Regrets often arrive too late and too little can be done about it.

Final statement of this post; Sometimes, the words that people write proves to have more meanings. Why? They are written because they are not said. The author probably chooses not to say it, could be that the author couldn't find the best way to say it... or probably the author couldn't find the courage to say it.

Pain pain pain...

I have got serious sunburn. Argghhh... now if you ask me is fishing fun, I will say NO, lol. I have got sunburn on my arms, my neck, my back and legs. To worsen it, I accidentally step on a piece of glass or probably sea shell and that has made a huge cut on my toe. I have got cut wounds all over my hands, my fingers. I am extremely exhausted, carrying two sets of nets. Topping that I had to carry the engine. Pushing the boat up and down the beach, my arms feel so tired it is as if they are disconnected from my torso. I sound so worn out eh? I am that worn out.

The catch today isn't as good as yesterday. Sigh... suddenly all the fishermen's boat feel a lot faster than our F17 Explorer. Hmm... so not satisfied. But they shall pay. Ohh... overtake us la. WAIT. Wait till we fit the Yamaha 30HP. We shall see who is faster. Hmmpph... hahaha... sound so kiddish.

Song of the week, Pink's new song titled Please Don't Leave Me. It is not that the song is that nice ... I just love the official music video. CUTE... hahaha...

Hmm... there is nothing much that I can say about my life now. If you ask me for one word that best describe my life now, I would have to say "lonely". I don't know why or the reason that makes me feel this way. All I know is that I start to feel the emptiness, taste the loneliness and and see all the blankness that surrounds my life. Arghh, I sound like someone who is so not right in the head, suffering from depression. LOL.

At this very moment, I really miss someone. I really do. Its amazing how you can keep on thinking of the same person everywhere you go. My friend, who suffers an almost similar situation once told me, staying will bring no one any goodness but then leaving is the last thing you want. To stay or to leave? I think my mind betray myself. It has already gave me an answer with those constant thoughts of you.

Hahahaha... surprisingly the application in facebook is not all that fake. I was using this horoscope application and its says that Saturday is my lucky day and indeed it is. I went fishing. And yea... I caught fishes... heheheh... Here are the pics...

Yay... grouper. Exactly 600g.

Grouper and threadfins... wonderful... but then again
SUNBURN...

I shall go fishing again tomorrow.
Meanwhile, I am eagerly waiting for the Yamaha 30hp. Yupz... UPGRADE. Dad is getting the Yamaha 30hp Enduro. Yay again... twice the horsepower of the tiny Suzuki motor, hehehe...

Wooo... had a great weekend...

I thought he was joking when he said he wanted to bring me to Pulau Bidan. I thought he was just saying it for the sake of saying it, just to excite me. Who'll ever thought he is for real. I mean come on, its just a 17 footer Explorer and a tiny 15HP Suzuki outboard motor. Well, he did bring me there. We did reach there. Its pretty amazing how such a small "perahu" actually crossed from Penang to Kedah. Well I always envy my friends that they get to go for vacations overseas, but I think it's okay la. I get to go to places few have been to, and exploring island by island with freedom.

1 hour and 20 minutes. That is how long it took us to reach there. 1st island, the Pulau Bidan. 12 minutes later, the 2nd island, Pulau Telur. Then there was Pulau Song Song and Pulau Bunting if I am not mistaken. The water there is crystal clear, I even saw a school of mackarel swimming, passing underneath our boat. Wah... fun, fun, fun...

Fishing. I have to say I am kinda disappointed. Sigh... the fishes there is so tiny. Barely reaching the size of 2.5 inch. But then there was plenty of fishes and we practice "catch and release". Fishing tiny fishes just for the fun of fishing.

The trip back from the islands to Penang was a whole lot faster. 50 minutes was all it took for us to reach Pulau Tikus, which is just 5 minutes away from the place where we park our boat. We had a great deal of fun, steering the boat all the way to the island and back... Waking up at 6:30 am, out to sea the whole day, Back home at 6:00 pm. 2 hours plus of boat ride to and fro. RM40 of petrol (tiny Suzuki is very frugal). April the 5th, a day to remember.

(Too bad I don't have a camera; my phone camera is not up for the job but I promise that I will save up, get a decent camera and take pictures the next trip there) =D

I am loving every bit of this song, the music video and the story behind the song. Rascal Flatts - What Hurts the Most. I have had this song for quite sometime now, playing it once in a blue moon but all that is different now after Mr. Danny Gokey made a cover of that song in American Idol top 9 performances. In my honest opinion, one has really got to feel the song in order to sing it well. Although Rascal Flatts made the song popular, I think Mr. Danny Gokey made the song meant something considering his past (his wife passing away). Anyway, check the music video out.

The story behind the song is that there is this couple who is deeply in love with one another. As you may see in the video, there was a sense of doubt in the guy, asking the girl "what's wrong, is it your dad?" However, this girl as we may assume is so madly in love with this guy, as she asked him back... "do you ever think about the future?" and the guy said "YOU". Well that is really touching but there was a secret that was untold (my guess) that the girl was pregnant. The sad thing that happened was that the guy was involved in a crash and passed away. The girl is obviously devastated that the father to her unborn child has passed away. Anyhow, you watch the video yourself and have your own say.

Rascal Flatts - What Hurts the Most

MY CAR STILL STINKS!!!

Arghhh... I am this close to snapping. My dad sings to me, my mum sings to me, my bro sings to me... arghh... there is nothing I can do except to arghhhh!!!!

I have tried everything suggested through the net. I have got the cushion cleaned by a car wash centre. I have sprayed Febreze like no one ever did. I used charcoal. I used vinegar. I bought car fresheners. I am going to use pandan leaves. Basically, I dismantle the whole rear of the car seats and place them under extreme heat, the sunlight all to no avail. The car still stinks. Sigh... anyone has any good, useable solution, please tell me. Please. Okay, don't suggest Dettol. I don't like the smell of Dettols. LOL.


Malaysian Economics

DAMN, the class is boring. Hell, WE WANT MS. HELEN BACK. Sigh, I hate KDU for assigning Mr. Parthiban to lecture for Malaysian Economics. By all means, that being said doesn't mean that he is a lousy lecturer. He is in fact too passionate. Guess how long did it took him to ask his first question. 45 MINUTES. He needs 45 minutes before he asked his first question, and that the students are still not familiar with him and I am sure he doesn't know the students too. Haihz... hang on hang on... 3 maybe 4 more months.


International Business

Ms. Leow is back. She is back and it seems she is a very very happy mother of a very healthy cute lil' baby girl. Good. But how's the lecture? Err... Ms. Leow will always be Ms. Leow and still is Ms. Leow. That said, its okay la. Guess I will survive pass through this subject. Hehehe...


Picture of the biggest swamp crab I ever caught. Hahaha... suppose to upload this pic long time ago but then didn't had the chance to until now. As wide as a 1.5 litre water bottle. Now that is huge...

The swamp crab's shell versus a normal flower crab's shell

Sunday (March 29,2009)

Travelled to Bukit Tambun, Simpang Ampat, Jawi, Sungai Udang, a Kuala which I don't know of the name, Tanjung Piandang. I was almost semi-paralysed sitting in the car for hours. Damn tired. Went to bed early. Did not update about song of the week.


Monday (March 30,2009)

First day of college. First lecture is Academic English 3 by Ms. Evelyn. Sadly she is not going to be with us for the whole semester. Surprisingly her hobby is fishing. Fishing wor? I can't believe my eyes when I saw her nails, so nicely done and polished. I don't believe her interest is fishing, despite her claim that she is from what Kelab Pemancing or whatsoever... kekekeke...

Back from college and I am off to work. Symphony BCSIS under Kelly Services. A new system, a new method of handling the cheques. Off from work and straight back home, before attending Joanne's b'day party.


Midnight, between Mon and Tue

At Sunset with a bunch of friends. Took a bottle or two of Heineken. There goes that ban of mine, the promise. Gotta restart all over again. That includes ciggs. Ish!!! A friend of mine went crazy, starts puking all over the place. Sad? Stress? I wonder what's the cause? Sigh...

CAR CLEANING. 2am - 5am. Hell I am tired. Both physically and mentally. Just so you know, whatever I did may be wrong, may be way off the line, too much... but I will never explain my actions. I don't have to.


Tuesday (March 31,2009)
Happy birthday Joanne. Off to car wash centre at 7:30 am. Meanwhile at college anticipating Professional Preparation Training from Mr. Mark, too bad its cancelled. The module is beginning next week. Here I am stuck in college, while the car is getting cleaned. Sigh... Suppose to go for baskin robbins today, guess no more.

Songs of the previous week (Update this week)

Tracks of My Tears (live) - Adam Lambert, American Idol Season 8
To Make You Feel My Love - Kris Allen, American Idol Season 8

Woooooohoooooo ..... yeayyyyy... yeayyyyy.... wahahaha... hahaha...

Haaa.... you guys probably think that CK has lost his mind, gone mad... become crazy... run amok but the fact is, it surpasses all that. It exceeds all those thoughts you have. Simply put it, what I feel now, how I feel now... is TOTALLY crazy but it is just too difficult to put it in words. I couldn't have been more delighted than I am, now that I know that despite screwing in my previous Org. Behavior final exam, I could still score well.

Man, getting an A for this subject means the world to me. I have to confess, I totally gave up, lowered my expectation to reduce the frustation and disappointment... but this is really... its just like God is giving me a second chance. Seriously, and until now, I still couldn't believe it. Well, I gotta say thanks to all those friends who was with me that day, when I was freaking down and emo (lol), and I definitely have to thank her, the one who confirmed me that everything was going to be okay.

Going through all these, I think learnt a thing or two. I have to be a lil more humble, stay a low profile and definitely help and assist more people. Don't be over-confident and know my limits. Perhaps this incident serves as a warning and a sign for me to change. I must change... I already changed but its going to take more time.

I have a song here to dedicate to everyone, myself included. Not really a fan of Miley Cyrus, but this song really caught my attention. Really inspiring. Very meaningful song.

Hey... hey... hey... I think my luck has changed. Hehehe... I think my luck is getting better lately. You must have wonder why I am saying this out of a sudden. Hmm... I went fishing again yesterday and damn it was fun. Let the pics do the talking.

Grouper. One aerola grouper and one orange spotted grouper.
"Koay Kao"
Snapper. One golden snapper. "Ang cho"
Catfish. Locally known as "toh-sat"
Marbled stargazer. Locally known as "hor hu"
Croaker. Locally known as "sam-ge"

Woke up at 6am. Out to sea at 7am. No breakfast, no lunch. Back home at 6pm. Tired? Yes... Fun... Definitely.

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Song of the week: Journey - Open Arms

Lying beside you, here in the dark, feeling your heart beat with mine
Softly you whisper, you're so sincere, how could our love be so blind
We sailed on together, we drifted apart, and here you are by my side

Chorus:
So now I come to you with open arms, nothing to hide, believe what I say
So here I am with open arms, hoping you'll see what your love means to me
Open arms

Living without you, living alone, this empty house seems to cold
Wanting to hold you, wanting you near, how much I wanted you home

But now that you've come back, turned night into day, I need you to stay

Chorus