Tired.

Fishing trip to Pantai Kerachut.
Sadly, the catch isn't that good.
Reach home at 6.55pm... was damn hungry,
Took dinner and here I am blogging.

One particular incident happened today.
Made me reminisce about the past.
Years ago, when I was a kid...
You owe me the respect that I deserve
But it seems like you'll never give it to me...
Even up till today, I am who I was years ago,... a kid.

Call me rude, I won't disagree...
If you can throw insinuations at me, and I can take it...
I see no reasons why you can't take a few from me.
Again, call me rude... but I won't disagree.

Its the end of another week.
Here is a song for everyone to cool down, and just rest their mind.
Its The Show by Lenka.

Yes.

There is nothing I wouldn't do for you,
But there is really nothing that I can do.
Perhaps I'll never get over you
So I'll wait, for there is nothing left for me to do.

Yes.

I wish you'll understand me.
I beg you'll never hate me.
I pray you'll never let go of me.
I hope you'll never allow yourself to get over me.

Yes.

I know my odds of getting there.
Fighting the fate that confines me
I pray and hope that I'll be there
For there is nowhere I'd rather be.

If only I could find a more fitting song to embed together with this post, it has to be Jewel - Leaving on a jet plane.

You have found your love for a way of life.
She on the other hand found love for a place.
What about me? I have yet to found anything in life.

What should I do next?
Where will I be in 3 months time?
How will I feel there?
Who is there to guide me?
When is all these going to end?

That aside...
I've been receiving messages from someone.
Someone who calls him/herself, my friend.
But sadly "my friend", I don't know who are you?
Would you at least kindly give me a name?
and gender, (I am not gay, I am straight).

Friends who read my blog.
Your help and assistance is needed.
If, any of you know this person
using the cellphone number;
012-4762687
Please inform me.
I would really want to meet this "friend".
Thank you.

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you
but make allowance for their doubting too,

If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don’t deal in lies,
Or being hated, don’t give way to hating
And yet not look too good, nor talk too wise:

If you can dream - but not make dreams your master,
If you can think - but not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two imposters just the same;

If you can bear to hear the truth you’ve spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build them up with worn-out tools

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it all on one turn of pitch-and-toss
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;

If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on, when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: “Hold on!”

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings, yet not lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much,

If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds’ worth of distance run
Yours is the Earth and everything in it,
And, what is more, you’ll be a Man, my son!

Joseph Rudyard Kipling

My 100th post.

I am going to ask myself this question
The question is directed to all of you too

Are you happy?

What is gonna make you happy?

Is it how you look?
or the car you drive?
the people you know?
could it be money?
popularity? fame?
power? accomplishments?

Well, am I happy?
No.
I have all those things and I don't feel its enough.

Well then, what is gonna make me happy?
I think its love.
Love for someone else,
could be for a place or
a way of life of even for a family;

But how I find it;
where I found it
its all up to me.
And the same goes out to all of you.

The past 6 months,
has been the toughest period for me;
I don't know what to do, where to go
Perhaps its time for me to face the fact
Time to seek my true calling.

(The questions I posted were taken from
OTH S05E01, Brooke Davis)

This is not my 100th post. Its one short... its the 99th post.

Well, I've been blogging about my stupid lame life for quite sometime now, for about 6 months and I do really wonder if anyone does drop by to visit. LOL.

Anyway, for my 99th post, it is going to somewhat similar to my very first post in this blog. I wouldn't say that I got drunk last night for I didn't vomit. I would rather say I was very high. Very very high indeed but I soldiered on and yes, I survived. It has been quite sometime since I drank that much, be it liquor or beer.

It was a night full of indirect slander and jokes, but we shrugged that aside for we are brothers (I am the youngest) . A night full of card games and dares coupled with challenges, never knew you could have so much fun with playing cards. It continued until 3 something in the morning. Soon, they dropped me back home and I slept at about 4 in the morning.

Well, everyone pretty much had their own agenda and problem. Some were there merely just to have fun. Some were burdened with family problem. I, I was deeply troubled by my own problem. Last night, or should I say yesterday marks more than 3 weeks since the "Errr???Huh???" post and I kept to my promise and only one friend knows what was the promise all about. Well, after last night...

I woke up at 8:30 in the morning. I am still pretty sleepy. The "sensation" from last night is somewhat still there. I am still pretty much dizzy. LOL. I got to go now to get more sleep... chao...

I am going to be dramatic.

God took away my eyesight when I was in Standard 1. I could still remember the day, I was called by the Ministry of Health officials and directed to go to the General Hospital. Being a kid back then it was scary, but what was scarier was the jokes, the pranks they played on you. Well I survived that. Its the past now.

People who invented contact lenses gave me back my eyesight today. The feeling of having a true and clear vision without the help of spectacles, glasses was so high. It was almost like my dream came true, to eliminate one of my greatest weakness. I thank those who invented contact lenses.

I'm very happy today. Despite getting to only wear the lenses for only 4 hours today, have to take them out in another 3 hours, I am happy. I am glad finally I had a chance to try on contact lenses. Well, maybe falling into the sea and to lose my specs is a blessing in disguise.

By the way, for those of you who joked that I will dig my eyes out, sorry to disappoint you. Haha. I managed to put the lenses in within 3 minutes. Taking out wasn't that difficult either. Hehehe...

Is it getting better
Or do you feel the same
Will it make it easier on you
Now you got someone to blame

You say
One love
One life
When it's one need
In the night
It's one love
We get to share it
It leaves you baby
If you don't care for it

Did I disappoint you?
Or leave a bad taste in your mouth?
You act like you never had love
And you want me to go without

Well it's too late
Tonight
To drag the past out
Into the light
We're one
But we're not the same
We get to carry each other
Carry each other
One

Have you come here for forgiveness
Have you come to raise the dead
Have you come here to play Jesus
To the lepers in your head
Did I ask too much
More than a lot
You gave me nothing
Now it's all I got
We're one
But we're not the same
We hurt each other
Then we do it again

You say
Love is a temple
Love a higher law
Love is a temple
Love the higher law
You ask me to enter
But then you make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what you got
When all you got is hurt

One love
One blood
One life
You got to do what you should

One life
With each other
Sisters
Brothers

One life
But we're not the same
We get to carry each other
Carry each other

Haizzz...

I am back but not in perfect immaculate condition. Mind you first, there could be typo errors in this post. I lost my specs. How did I lose it? The stupid CK saw a cuttlefish swimming beside the boat, reached out his hand and tried to grab it but he caught no cuttlefish; instead he fell into the sea. Blooommm, CK fell, next moment he got up back into the boat and there goes the specs.

What next? Got scolded lo. RM500 dropped into the sea. There goes my first specs with Nikon lenses. Back home, got lectured lo. To worsen the situation, I have no spare specs. How are? Blind lo. I am blind now.

Considering that I am blind now, was wondering... if there are anyone who is willing to lend me their eyes for a few days? Hahaha... Okay okay, just be my eyes for a few days, don't have to lend me. LOL...

A day full of motoring...

It was a pretty boring day. Weather was fine and decided maybe I should have one those solo ride all around Penang Island again. Set out at about 10:30 am. Areas covered, Batu Feringgi > Teluk Bahang > Pantai Acheh > Teluk Kumbar > Batu Maung > Jelutong > Fort Cornwallis > Gurney Drive > Tanjung Bungah reaching home at 12:30 noon; A trip which I believe to be about 100 kilometres. The fun, undescribable. The thrill, out of this world.

Top speed I managed to reach on the highway along the coastal line, 150km/h. Fastest speed around the bends in those scary roads after Teluk Bahang dam, 80km/h. Roads discovered, roads that I use less than 3 times a year, 50 kilometres. Don't mind the scorching sun, the dust, the insects... verdict: Penang is one beautiful state. There is something special about it.

Anyway, I love the bike, I love the sound it makes, the way it handles. Its old and its aging, but I'm proud to say that it is still my bike and I love every bits of it.

Back home, took lunch, bathed and went for an afternoon nap. Woke up at 4:30pm. Decided that since I've nothing to do, might as well just visit Top Gear UK's website and watch the videos posted. Jeremy Clarkson is an arse but he is one great person, and he has one of the greatest job on earth. Richard Hammond is one funny guy and yes he is entertaining. James May is also funny, but he's funny because he is somewhat retard.

Challenges, a trip of almost 800 miles on a full tank of gasoline. Trips to the US to test the muscle cars. Comparisons between the Evo X FQ360 against the Sti WRX. Track laps by the Stig. Best of all, Top Gear in Vietnam where they had to travel from South Vietnam to North Vietnam, convert their vehicles into amphibious vehicle to reach a floating bar.

All and all, its a day full of motoring. Tomorrow, tomorrow could be a day full of fishing. Hehehe... that's it for now. Bye...

Jordin Sparks is back. This is her new single, Battlefield.

Hahaha... what better ways to just kick back and relax after an exhausting mid term exam than to watch this creative video (a must watch) and listen to the music. I couldn't stop laughing after watching it... LOL

Exam exam exam...

AE3's exam was retarded. So is the lecturer. In fact, there is nothing which is not retarded in that class.

International Business exam was not so retarded but still retarded. Why on earth must the MCQ questions be so difficult? Luckily, the lecturer is not retarded. Her tips are accurate minus ethnocentrism. LOL.

But nothing beats Malaysian Economics. Malaysian economics is the most retarded of all. The lecturer Parthiban S. Gopal is in fact the most retard lecturer in KDU business department. The notes are damn effing retard. So are the exam questions, retard.

I have better pass, preferably score in this midterms. Or else, I swear to God I'll tear down the college and murder all the lecturers in business school. Hahaha... the KDU massacre.

Just another song to share by Jazmine or Jasmine Sullivan. Its After The Hurricane from her album titled Fearless. Well, I think this is a really really nice song, and she sang it very well too. No hidden meanings here, just love the tune of the song.

What a lucky day today?

What a better way to start your morning by taking the good old Malaysian's favorite breakfast, the nasi lemak. The rice is cooked to perfection with coconut milk taken with the delicious spicy anchovies gravy on top served with banana leaves. Hmm... yummy. Well, that is what I thought too... until this morning. I vow that I'll never ever take nasi lemak for breakfast again.

Why? I was surfing the internet this morning when I took my breakfast and thank god I was eating very very slowly. I had finished almost half of the nasi lemak when I pushed the anchovies aside and found worms. WORMS. ARGHHH!!! That totally disgusted me. I immediately rush to the toilet, shove two fingers down my throat and bluak all of it. Hahahaha...

Okay that was a "pretty good" way to start the day. Next, after dinner... on the way back to the car... I stepped on dog poo. Arghhh!!! DOG POO... Sigh... I had to go clean my shoe and hop back to the car on one foot. Ish!!! What a lucky day...

Alright. A song to share. Its by Taylor Swift, Cold As You.

One more song for this week. Its Gabrielle from UK with Out of Reach.



Interested to know the meaning of the song? Well check out this link here below.

http://www.songmeanings.net/songs/view/52243/

The sea breeze was blowing lightly, the sky was drizzling, the sea was calm... we went out fishing at about 3 p.m today. No luck with fishing using rods and hand lines, we finally gave up and head back to shore to get some nets. Next, we caught some prawns, a few catfish and with the sun setting down at about 7 p.m, it was about time we head back. Reaching the beach, there were a few people who started to yell at us. Hmm...

There is a guy who is stranded in the middle of the sea. He was out wind-surfing but as the winds were too "gentle" coupled by strong currents, he drifted far away and is unable to head back to shore. So, it's up for us to the rescue. Hehehe. We had to find the guy before it gets too dark.

The White Boat has suddenly become the rescue ranger boat. Hahaha... With the newly upgraded Suzuki DT30 outboard motor, we found the guy in no time. He was drifting helplessly on his surf board. Pheww... the look on his face when he saw us. Ehh... we are not suppose to laugh at the misfortune of others. We pull him up into our boat, drag the wind surf and the board up and slowly headed back to shore. At last, everyone is safe and happy. Hehehe...

Wow... helping others really feels good. I can't imagine what I'll do if I'm in his position. Apparently, he went out on a canoe to rescue a female rookie surfer. He allowed the lady to actually canoe back while he will try to surf back. However, the rescuer ends up being rescued by us. Okay... I am gonna refrain myself from laughing again. We should not laugh at the misfortune of others. Hahaha...

Anyway, in this life, you reap what you sow. I went out for dinner at this place in Batu Feringgi. After dinner, we were waiting for our receipt and out of nowhere, the cashier was shouting and yelling at me. Then from nowhere, a guy came and push me away. Hmm... the guy actually saved my life. There was a big CENTIPEDE, or in malay LIPAN, which is EXTREMELY poisonous underneath the table. It was about 9 maybe 10 inches long. Geez... scared me to hell. They then killed that "thing" which almost killed me. Hooray!!! Everyone is safe and happy again.

Morale from this, do good unto others and maybe God might pity you. Hahaha... in Malay, buat baik berpada-pada, buat jahat jangan sekali.