I am so angry with myself. I am so pissed at God. Why me? Why? What's your problem??? Why do you have to fool me this way? Its not as if everything was smooth sailing lately. I just couldn't stop blaming myself. And Bloody hell, why now? Why do this to me when things matter to me most?
If there is anything left for me to do now, it's to fuck my life. Why? Why was I born with this disability? I was I born with this flaw in me. I am nice to everyone, at least I think I am. Again, could it be ego? If it is, then I will just take my own life. Woohoo... I am yet again another statistic for Malaysian's who have ever thought of committing suicide. I so not contented. I feel that it is so FUCKING not worth it. Argh!!!!!
I will never ever forgive myself. But Hell I swear, I really thought I saw another word. I really do. Why prank me??? Going through life's hardest lesson... it will take time before I heal.
If there is anything left for me to do now, it's to fuck my life. Why? Why was I born with this disability? I was I born with this flaw in me. I am nice to everyone, at least I think I am. Again, could it be ego? If it is, then I will just take my own life. Woohoo... I am yet again another statistic for Malaysian's who have ever thought of committing suicide. I so not contented. I feel that it is so FUCKING not worth it. Argh!!!!!
I will never ever forgive myself. But Hell I swear, I really thought I saw another word. I really do. Why prank me??? Going through life's hardest lesson... it will take time before I heal.
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