The Fray - Never Say Never

One of the comments posted about this song in songmeanings.net

DistantNFaded [February 7, 2009]

"This is how I see this song, only because of the current situation going on in my life. I think it may be about a girl who is walking out of his life. They have been friends forever, but never became anything more. "Some things we don't talk about, rather do without and just hold a smile" They each have been "falling in and out of love" but either way, they have remained close. But something changed, he wants something more then just that friendship. Maybe she has actually found someone to spend the rest of her life with, even though that other guys isn't right for her and it made him realize. He believes "you can never say never" hoping that they will be together one day. He proceeds to tell her how he feels. He says "picture you're the Queen of everything, far as the eye can see" because she thinks she holds the world in her hands at the moment, but he knows eventually she has to realize that other guy isn't right for her. He continues to say "I will be your guardian when all is crumbling, I'll steady your hand." Meaning, he will always be there for her."

蘇永康 - 男人不该让女人流泪
William So Yong Kang - Nan Ren Bu Gai Rang Nu Ren Liu Lei

Transformer 2: Revenge of the Fallen


Yesterday (Jun 23), GSC showed the early screening of one of the most anticipated movies this year, the sequel of Transformer, Transformer 2: Revenge of the Fallen. Well, thanks to my friends for counting me in in their plans, I had the opportunity to watch the movie earlier than its intended screening which is today.

Allow me to give my two-cents about the movie. Overall, I would say the movie is entertaining (plot aside). For those who loves actions and lots of kung fu from robots, this movie is a definite must for you. But behind all those actions and kung fus, the movie doesn't really have much to offer except the hot hot hot Megan Fox, lol.

I have to applaud the director for the start of movie. The chaos in Shanghai, the introduction of a few new autobots, it does make the audiences bite their teeth and keep them in the suspense mode especially the threat uttered by the Decepticon, "the Fallen shall rise again". However, since that, the movie becomes extremely draggy.The bloody annoying mum who whines a lot, the unsignificant dad who adds nothing to the plot (as usual), and the suspicious hot chick that tries to seduce Sam. It is pretty obvious that certain scenes from the suspicious hot chick chasing after Sam and Megan is somewhat an imitation or resembles those from Terminator 3: The Rise of the Machines. And the curious thing is, since when Decepticons can transform and imitate a human, or rather a hot chick.

There is also a lot of unnecessary humor injected into the movie. Examples such as the mum getting high on drugs and starts to crap, Agent Simmons with his line "remember what I did for my country, the country that betrayed me". The middle part of the movie is also rather long in their quest to find the Matrix of Leadership. But soon after they recovered it, the movie starts to get alive again with all those robots fighting one another. The movie also has a few moments of its own where it connects with the audiences emotion such as the fall of the Optimus and the scene where Sam was injured and unconscious.

By all means, I am no movie critic or reviewer. I am just sharing my two-cents about the movie. Out of a rating of 10, it certainly deserves an 8 despite all those shortcomings in the movie. My comments, Like: the action, the thrill and the robots; Dislike: the unnecessary scenes that made the movie too long and that about it. By the way, I love the soundtrack too, Linkin Park's New Divide.

MSN (8.55 PM, June 22) - CK | Who wants to go out and get a few buckets of beers?

MSN (11.30PM, June 22) - CK | Who wants to go out and get a few buckets of beers? | Finally, someone answered my call.

MSN (4.42AM, June 23) - CK | Just reached home. Still bloody awake. I need to go out more often.

Between the night of June 22 and the wee hours of the morning.
An invite to Jerry's condo to have some beer, chit chat and relax.
Simon was kind enough to give me a lift.
Once there, we played games
Ping, pong ... PIANG!!!
Interesting as it is... the game got better once everyone starts to get a lil tipsy.
We have people who ping themselves.
Then the same person again to pong themselves.
And people who piang their neighbors and forget to surrender. (Me included)
All and all, it was damn fun.
As stated through my MSN nick, reached home at 4.42am.
Bathed... and that's it. Went to bed about 5.20am,
the hour mum woke up
She was rather stunt that I was still awake and very fresh. Hahaha...
I wonder if I told her that I just woke up, maybe she would have believed me...
LOL. I'll save that for next time. Slept like a pig and woke up at 8.55am.
Not bad, even if I have a class at 9am
I think I can reach college by 9.20am, hahahaha... (the biggest lie of all)
Took breakfast, blogging now...
and I'll be back in bed in another few more minutes. Hahahaha...

MSN (8.55am, June 23) - CK | Nonsense... I love my bed... I wanna sleep more

What do you call an occasion or event that your family organize once a year, every year? Tradition?

Well, this occasion or event is held within my family once a year usually during the local fruit season every year and has already lasted for generations inherited from my forefathers. If I'm not mistaken or if I'm not making up stories, this tradition originated from Thailand (forgive me if I'm wrong) which may be explained as my forefathers descend from Thailand.

This occasion or event is more like a prayer to a guardian/protector. A few rules/requirements of this prayer is that no pork (and I mean NO PORK!!!, lol) is allowed and fruit offerings of durians, rambutans, mangosteen and cemphedak is a MUST; then there is the nasi kunyit with wonderful chicken curry and pulut with inti (grated coconut cooked with thick black sugar) and those daun rokok (I'm not sure what its called) like the ones people offer to "datuk kong". Well, the concept is similar to prayers to "datuk kong" except that the prayer has to start in the afternoon... say 3.30 pm or so. Something different is that we don't use joss stick but rather candles, red-coloured candles to pray (you can see them in the pics later).

I hope I didn't break any rules for taking pics (sorry if I did). Durians, so many durians. Rambutans, mangosteen and cemphedak. Sadly, I dun take any of those fruits. (Dad, if you're reading this, but that is very unlikely... "you spend so much on durians and eat them like ice-creams, but I don't know how to eat durians and I don't intend to learn. Can you please be fair, and buy some Haagen Daaz or Baskin Robbins next year so I get to eat something too while watching you guys take durians". LOL.

Easily 35 durians overall. Might have cost dad a couple hundreds.
Names like ang heh(red prawn), kay nui jin(egg?) and what "kum poh*"

Mangosteen, cemphedak and rambutans

Right: Nasi kunyit with chicken curry | Left: Pulut inti

Picture during the prayer at granny's house. (notice the candle)

As I blog about this, I wonder if I still get to be with my family to celebrate this event next year. The future lies uncertain, I might be in Aus, probably KL or some other places next year during the fruit season.

Plurk.com

9.47 pm<> "ck_a_student wants to slack and laze around. TIRED OF EVERYTHING..."

I am very tired of the never ending presentation and assignment. I am very tired thinking about friends leaving Malaysia. I am very tired thinking about what to do next after diploma. I am very tired thinking of which Uni or U/C to join. I just wanna kick back, slack, laze and relax.

I wanna go out. Hang out with friends. Go for outings day or night, it doesn't matter. Venue, not an issue. Be it to the beach, or to clubs. I just wanna spend every remaining time I have in Penang with friends and my diploma course mates. Duration, not a problem. Whole morning, whole night, whole day. 6, 12 or 24 hours. Skip class, not an issue. Money, I will get all the funds I need from Mom. AND FOR ONCE, I am going to hang up my bike key and helmet. I'll drive for a change.

Looking forward to Tuesday (error corrected, Monday is not 23rd). Transformer 2: Revenge of The Fallen at GSC. Wednesday too. Jeff's birthday. Going to be a crazy night. Gonna get drunk and wasted. Hahahaa... Meanwhile, friends ar... plan la... more plans... but count me in okay. LOL. Screw college and exam and assignment and presentation.

The ABSURDITY in KDU College Penang Campus has just reached its maximum.

Come this June 22, which is about a week or so from now, ALL KDU STUDENTS are required to wear the student card, (okay... they prefer us to call it the "smart cards") ; students are required to wear their smart cards on their body for the purpose of identification due to the recent rise in theft cases in the campus. The reasons they gave to implement such a stupid yet childish method was that to protect of course not only the student's assets and belongings but also those belonging to the college.

So... one would probably wonder why I am so pissed at such move being made compulsory by none other than the head or principal of KDU College Penang campus, Dr Chong Beng Keok. First and foremost, to implement such move will require the involvement of all faculties and schools within the campus. Albeit being able to make it compulsory for the employees of KDU to obey such rules (or they will get the boot if they disobey, personally witnessed such cases before [insubordination]), to think rationally, are they able to make it compulsory to the 3000 students in that campus. (3000 is just a rough estimation). Even though if they manage to make it compulsory, what can they do to make the students obey such idiotic rule. Discipline is another issue but to have students being penalised or even brought to a hearing for not wearing his/her "smartcard" which I prefer to call it the DOG TAG, still wouldn't bring much effect in making students obey. Come on, let us be honest to ourselves. Fellow coursemates and friends who read my blog, I think as teenagers, we are somewhat rebellious and the more "mature" adults want us to do something, we always end up doing the opposite. Hokkien people also have a saying-la, "chiak nui boh chiak theng". Though I'm graduating and leaving the college soon, with my limited ability to forecast, the possibility of the rate of success of this rule being fully implemented and fully obeyed is not zero (due to the KDU employees ma) but will never reach 50%. Well that is just an optimistic projection from a student with limited ability to do a forecast.

Next. How successful can this rule help in curbing the theft cases in campus? Come on, if the rule is not going to be effective in solving this cases or even preventing new cases from happening, why bother wasting time to implement it. Why start something so absurd and soon after not being able to achieve success with it, just shuts the whole thing down and walk off with shame. Well, maybe that is the way KDU College Penang Campus operates (Oops!!!). If the students are required to wear the card, haven't the management or the principal figure out that outsiders can simply duplicate the card. Don't you guys agree? Duh!!! Wearing those smart cards, I wonder if there is going to be anyone who will be bothered to check the card you're wearing, whether the card belongs to you or your friends, or probably you are just a freaking snobbish s.o.b who could be wearing your Platinum AMEX card on your neck (plenty of such people in KDU). And KDU being KDU, the smart card is a business to them whether or not they see it my way. You lose the card, you can't enter the campus until you make a new card. Making a new card of course again cost you money. RM50.00 if I'm not mistaken. (Hey, I don't study Diploma in Business for two years and learnt nothing okay).

I swear I am going to end this rant soon. Just hold on and bear with me okay? Last but not least, did the management or college authorities or even the principal investigate the theft issue and find out the reason of it happening. That again brings me to the next question. WHAT THE HELL IS THE SECURITY PERSONNELS DOING? The purpose of hiring the security personnels (have high regards for them by not calling them guards which is so degrading to their profession) is to maintain order and safety in the campus. Their duty does not only confine to shoo-ing students away for parking their cars in front of the campus. By now you'll be asking yourself, "ya hor, what were the security personnels (guards) doing?" Well, if one sits at the front lobby for 15 minutes, you can witness strangers walking in and out of campus and these security personnels just sit their bumps on the bench provided. Okay, I hope I don't give you guys the impression that I am blaming the guards. I have no such intention at all. I am merely stating that it is within their duty and responsibility in trying to prevent such theft cases from happening INSIDE the campus which they failed, BADLY. So,... why penalise the students for something that they didn't do. Why are we made to wear the smart cards when we have done nothing wrong? To make it clear, I am not against the ruling... I am not sure how other colleges or universities operate. Perhaps they require their students to wear their IDs, but to make it compulsory now that theft cases are happening is such a disgrace to one of the premier colleges in Penang (not being able to catch the thief, we catch the students).

End of my rants for now. More to come this June 22 if I am forced to wear my DOG TAG. Sorry but I have no respect for the smart card or whatsover ID that we have in college. We, or maybe I believe that as adults, individuals we are very mature. Don't tell me or give me reasons such as you have to wear it at your workplace too in the future. I don't buy that. Allow me to apologize here too if I've offended anyone from KDU College Penang Campus, the principal included.

Students graduating, my friends... please make sure that you have completed all your MPW papers. You are required to fill in a form to claim your certificate or something like that. Please make sure you've settled all your payments. That's it. Nothing much to say. The final exam timetable will be uploaded into KCN soon and will be available for viewing at the notice board in front of the Business school. Thank you for your time. Its a pleasure to have my blog as the place where I can rant non-stop. Hahaha...

Like what my friend said
*for every progress that we try to make
we achieved nothing but more regression*

Think about it. Awesome isn't it?

Its been ages since I checked my mailbox.

At the request of some people, or maybe one person...
I went and click "like" on a friend's status in Facebook.
Fine, guess I was stupid as I received stupid mails from Facebook from doing that as so many people commented on that post.
Well, didn't took me long to delete all those junk mails.
I came across a few mails which are useful.

One from IDP.
One from CY.
One from Su-lyn.
One from Deborah.

IDP sent me a mail about the interview schedule which I haven't decided whether or not to attend.
CY's mail is rather interesting. Still couldn't figure it out. Why don't you help me... 12 or 13...?
Su-lyn's is pure humor. Some unique rendition of the famous and one of my favorite songs of all time, Hotel California by the Eagles. An Indian version called Hotel Kerala-fonia. Though the singer totally butchered the song, the least it could do was to bring a smile to my face and made me laugh for about 2 minutes...? hahhaha...

Deborah's mail was about an invite to join Plurk. It is something something la. Kinda interesting though with the time line and the status shout out. I guess I will not sign up now considering I was kinda stupid to join Netlog not too long ago, maybe 2 years ago which I never bothered to log in at all. LOL.

Another song to share here. Its Daniel Powter - Am I Still The One? And for the record... I am not the missing one or the extra one from the pic above. Hahaha...

Two days of fishing under the very hot sun.
Two unlucky days.
Stupid Saturday, I got stung.
Bad Sunday, a big fish managed to got loose;
and when I say big, I mean big.
Arghhh!!!

Sea condition was very choppy.
Imagine going through road humps on a car with no absorbers...
and the trip lasting for a lil' less than half an hour.
My body is falling apart.
My whole stomach was turned upside down
Organs inside my stomach all fell off their position
LOL...

One thing is for sure.
Explorers are good boats;
and when I say good, I mean really good.
Hahaha...

(spoken)
Girl you know we belong together
I have no time for you to be playing
With my heart like this
You'll be mine forever baby, you just see

(verse)
We belong together
And you know that I'm right
Why do you play with my head,
Why do you play with my mind?

Said we'd be forever
Said it'd never die
How could you love me and leave me
And never say good-bye?

Girl I can't sleep at night without holding you tight
Girl, each time I try I just break down and cry
Pain in my head oh I'd rather be dead
Spinning around and around

Chorus:
Although we've come to the end of the road
Still I can't let you go
Its unnatural, you belong to me, I belong to you
Come to the end of the road
Still I can't let you go
Its unnatural, you belong to me, I belong to you

Girl, I know you really love me,
You just don't realize
You've never been there before
Its only your first time

Maybe I'll forgive you, hmm
Maybe you'll try
We should be happy together
Forever, you and I

Girl, you love me again like you loved me before
This time I want you to love me much more
This time instead just come to my bed
And baby just don't let me, don't let me down

Chorus:

(spoken)
Girl I'm here for you
All those times of night when you just hurt me
And just run out with that other fella
Baby I knew about it, I just didn't care
You just don't understand how much I love you do you?
I'm here for you

Im not out to go out and cheat on you all night
Just like you did baby but that's all right
Hey, I love you anyway
And I'm still gonna be here for you till my dying day baby
Right now, I'm just in so much pain baby
Coz you just won't come back to me
Will you? just come back to me

(lonely)
Yes baby my heart is lonely
(lonely)
My heart hurts baby
(lonely)
Yes I feel pain too
Baby please

This time instead just come to my bed
And baby just don't let me go

Chorus:

Chorus (a cappella)

WHAT WAS I THINKING?

WHY DID I DO IT?

IDIOT LA ME....!!!!

ARGHHHHH!!!!!!!!

Another CK's strange but true fact... believe it... or not.

Do you practice what you preach?

Well, I've been thinking a lot lately. I've been thinking of where I was 2 years ago, where I am today and where I might be in the future. I've been thinking of what I was doing 2 years ago, what I am doing today and what I am going to do in the future. I've been thinking a lot of who I was 2 years ago, who I am today and who I am going to be in the future. Then all these question brings me to one very funny question. What did I do best in the past 2 years?

Hmm... what did I do best in the past 2 years? If there one thing I do best at college and at home, its talking. Hahaha. Laugh all you want but seriously, that is the one thing that I do best. Talk and talk, preach and preach. I talk some sense but most of the time, I talk nonsense. I talk about what is right and what is wrong. I talk about the pros and the cons. I talk and talk and talk, I am just like a broken record that continues non-stop. Okay, all these leads me to another question.

Do I practice what I talk? Do I practice what I preach? A lil' embarrassed, the answer is No. I don't practice what I talk nor what I preach all the time. Sometimes, the principles in life that we hold so dearly to seems to limit what you can and cannot do. But that is another the issue. The issue is that I have to constantly remind myself to talk less and probably I'll embarrass myself less. At the end of the day, no matter how good you are in talking... we have to consider the burden. The weight carried by those who suffer is always heavier than the weight carried by those who talk.

Here we go again, and you see I am talking non-stop again. Well, long story short. All I trying to say is walk the talk. Don't talk a lot (like me) and let all the words and principles go down the drain. Strange but true. Have you asked yourself if you ever did something which contradicts with what you talk or preach? Hmm... isn't it like always. Hahaha... We always rationalize our actions to make it deemed fit to what we talk.

There are many facts in our lives. Some of the facts are just undeniable, unquestionable. Some are just plain truth. But this one is different. Its strange. But then, what is stranger that the human mind. The human mind and brain is the strangest and most complex subject in this planet. What do you have to say about this fact?

Most of the time, we make those who care for us cry.
On the other hand,

we often cry for those who won't and never will care for us.
Worse still...
The ones we care about are those that won't and never will cry for us.


Hmm... what do you think? Sounds like what you're going through now?
Well this is CK... strange but true... believe it... or not.. hahahaa...

As I've posted earlier, I have a sudden fondness to Cantonese songs. So... considering that this is the end of the week, I just wanna share an emo? maybe not? not sure Cantonese song with you guys. Its by Gigi Leung. The title is ... errr ... po' bu' de` yi or... the meaning in english is having no recourse? I am not sure la. You go check out the song.

Been really busy these few days...

Assignments... presentations... they just keep on coming. It's as if they are never ending. LOL.

Didn't have a good sleep for days now. It's been like 2 maybe 3 nights of rolling on the bed, staring at the ceiling blankly and that continues for hours before I can actually fall to sleep.

Been on a downloading spree. Downloaded 4 albums in just one night. Just had that sudden fondness to Cantonese songs. For your info, the 4 albums downloaded are all works of Gigi Leung. Hmm... always know she is an actress but didn't know that she can sing pretty well too.

Okayla... that's it. Can't talk much, back to the assignments.

The most embarrassing event struck me this morning. Arghhh!!!

Alright, I head down to college at about 10 am to get a lecturer's cellphone number for one of my friends who is in Singapore now. Everything went smoothly; I got the cellphone number and as I was heading back to my bike (I walked through the cafeteria), I met two of my previous lecturers. For your info, they are not from the Business School. You should have an idea which department they are from.

Alright, part two. I swear to God there was no one behind me. There was some people using their laptop facing outwards to Le' Cafe. The lecturers were taking a break and as I was walking, both the lecturer was waving their hands. Initially, I thought it wasn't me. Fine. I ignored them. Then they continued to wave towards me. I felt really weird. Walk towards them and as walk towards them, they were smiling at me. Fine. I ask them, did you waved at me? " No, I was waving at another guy..."

Hmm... now I really look like a fool. Thank god there was no one at the cafeteria and even if there was a few students, they were minding their own business. I was rather pissed off. I should have just walked away. Arghhh!!! I think they were playing a prank on me. Idiotic lecturers. Anyway, I shall get over it. Misunderstanding. Miscommunication. LOL.

After that incident, I head down to Pulau Tikus and went to IDP. Seek some advice and opinion from them. Well, for a non-fussy guy like me who has no freaking idea of which Uni he wants to go to, it totally mess things up. The consultant recommended a few Unis, a few ... which is about FIVE. LOL. Curtin, Adelaide, Tasmania, South Australia and Queensland(techno). Now that is a really broad option. I don't care where I end up as long as the degree is good and preferably I can get a scholarship or some sort of a discount on my tuition fee.

Well, the consultant did made a point, it doesn't really matter much which Uni I choose (since based upon her observation I'd fit in well in any of those Unis), its just a matter of finding the Uni that fits me perfectly. Haiz, headache. I am back to square one, where I started 2 years four months ago. At the end of the meeting, I went back home with loads of thick brochures. Madness, I think I might just drop the idea of heading overseas for my degree. The idea seems so sweet, so tempting... but then its such a hassle. I might just forget about it, and I'd be lucky if I get to reach KL. LOL.

Anyway... that's it for now. Until I update on my future, my bleak future... this is CK who was totally embarrassed by this morning's incident. Chao...

James Blunt - Tears and Rain

How I wish I could surrender my soul
Shed the clothes that become my skin
See the liar that burns within my needing
How I wish I'd chosen darkness from cold
How I wish I had screamed out loud
Instead I've found no meaning

I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain

How I wish I could walk through the doors of my mind
Hold memory close at hand
Help me understand the years
How I wish I could choose between Heaven and Hell
How I wish I would save my soul
I'm so cold from fear

I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble
Far, far away; find comfort in pain
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain