Hmm... life for the past week was really quiet and dull. A few of my lucky friends had actually went for their vacation while some had try to earn some extra cash by working and others were so busy living their lives that they didn't even had time to get online. Sigh... how much I wished for the new semester to start now but not for it to end. Silly me, right???

Hmm... maybe I had less friends that I thought I had. The numbers of phone calls I received 2 weeks ago compared to the numbers of phone calls I received now is a clear evident. A sudden drop of almost 80%. Now that is remarkable; LOL. Anyway, I think I had forgotten to mention that there was also an 80% increase 2 weeks ago compared to the weeks before. Hahaha... I guess we'll call it even.

Hmm... I went fishing again yesterday. One thing is for sure, the fishes are back from their holidays. Hahaha. Well, it was kinda hot yesterday and I am kinda "fried"; LOL. Nevertheless, the sea was pretty calm and that is a good thing. I had to say yesterday was somewhat a lucky day. A torn up net, but 5 threadfins??? If it's not luck, then what was it... Hehehe. Coming back home with a chill box half filled with threadfins (not empty handed this time...) it felt good.

Hmm... back to college related matters. If I am not mistaken, the registration date for the Jan 09 semester is on the 30th and 31st of December. That was the info I got from Cik Aini. If you are interested to know more or want to reconfirm the date, do call the college. For the Aug 08 semester results, I am not too sure but I do believe that you will get your result on the registration date itself. That's it for now... Best of luck to everyone...

I confess that I am a workaholic. For this holiday, I had actually applied for the lab assistant job in KDU and I was accepted. Hmm... I may not earn much from it, but I did learn a lot from the job. Well, I started the job on Tuesday morning, being my first day on the job it was something like of a training. I learned about how the login system works, how the queueserver printing system works and how to scan documents for students. I admit, the job is pretty boring but I guess I shouldn't complain too much.

There is another thing that I have to confess. I hate Maybank. Maybank sucks. Working with KDU, I was required to have an account in Maybank in order for them to bank in my salary for me. I didn't have one, so I was asked to open an account with Maybank. Okay, I had just learn about the psychology of waiting in Services Marketing class and I know why waiting will feel much longer than they actually is. Fine. Well, is 1.5 hours waiting long enough? I was asked to wait for my turn and there was only 2 customers who came before me. I am wondering why the bank workers need 1.5 hours to handle 2 customers. For God's sake, it's ONLY 2 customers. Why do they need 45 minutes for one customer? Anyway, its done. I don't wanna talk about it anymore.

Not done yet. I still have one thing to confess. I love my bike. I just love it so much. Hmm.. how fast can a 650cc V-Twin go? 1st gear at 8500rpm, it reaches 80km/h, shift up and you're engaged with the second gear which brings you up to 120km/h, shift up again and you will be exceeding the speed limit and you can feel the torque all across the rev. Extra info to share with you, reaching 100km/h just takes about 4 secs. Not joking here. It is my first time experiencing such a broad torque curve on any motorcycle. Suddenly, I feel that small bikes are really so underpowered. Anyway, the fastest I ever went with the bike is 160km/h and damn it's fast. However speed kills. Someone, anyone please constantly remind me that I will get myself killed if I don't stop this madness and addiction to speed.

OKAY. Maybe I have one last thing to confess. Sorry, I promise this is the last one.

I miss her. It is just so difficult. It has been like almost a week, seven days and a hundred and sixty eight hours since I last saw her face to face. I am starting to think that if a week has become a time period which is so long, how am I gonna cope with it when she leaves and it is real soon before she leaves. Hmm... how can one fall and fall so deep, a question I ask myself every single day before sleep. Jokes or not, she is the first thing I think of every morning and the last thing that I think of before I sleep. One will ask, does she deserves it? Answer is YES. Ask me today, ask me tomorrow, ask me next week, next month, next year and the answer will always remain as YES, always and forever.

I end this post with a song to share with you guys. The title is Waiting For You, by Anson Hu.

Holidays are so boring... Haiz... Rotting at home...

Funny is, I guess it is holidays for the fishes too. I went fishing lately, but to my surprise, for once... I came back empty handed. EMPTY HANDED. I had been following my dad fishing for at least 5 years now and never once did I came back empty handed. Well, everything has its first time. Where has all the luck gone to??? Most importantly, where has all the fishes gone to... ? Please come back soon, LOL.

With no fishes to catch, fishing eventually becomes boring. In order to save myself from boredom, I resorted to digging for shellfish. I am not sure of the exact name in English, but I am damn sure the Malays call it siput remis and we Chinese just call is siput. So what did we do with the siput? Well, if there is one reason I love mum's cooking is because of this siput. Hehehe. She is so good at preparing it, thick soy sauce, lots of ginger and sugar... Yummy...

They are beautiful isn't it? They are yummy too... after it is cooked and prepared by mum, Hehehe

Mum is very active lately. She has been baking cake non-stop. 2 fruit cakes and 2 butter cakes in one week. All finished up within one week. Hmm... wondering why I can't get any fatter...

Today, she made some curry puffs and damn they are tasty. And they look beautiful too. So they say you gotta serve the eye first before the mouth... Hahaha... well take a look at the curry puffs... the pastry has a very unique shell-like design...

Yummy!!! I am so gonna gain weight this hols (hopefully)

I am deeply addicted to songs from Sam Lee now. I am officially not CK anymore... LOL.

This song is dedicated to someone. Hope that someone will get the message. Think carefully before you do anything, okay???

Sam Lee - Recently ( 李聖傑-最近 )

This song has a very very sad music video. It is about a girl who is so truly, madly and deeply in love with her boyfriend. One day, the girl found out that her boyfriend is cheating on her. Trying to salvage the severed relationship, the girl resorted to using her own body, betraying her own self to rescue her lost love by eternally possessing her boyfriend physically instead. Later on, the girl drugged her boyfriend and commit suicide and kill the boyfriend together with her.

Lyrics translated

Recently you didn't talk much
What? Why?
Is there any matter?
You are not happy
Heard that you are lonely recently
A bit distraught
A bit hasty
However, I cannot be on you side

I don't wish to give you everything of me.
I cannot be what you want me to be.
We are not meant for each other but we deny it.
On several occasion we cry for each other.
All day long like this, it's the beginning
I think all have ended long ago
Don't want to be bounded again
Don't want to suffer again
Next path will be better

Recently you didn't talk much
What? Why?
Is there any matter?
You are not happy
Heard that you are lonely recently
A bit distraught
A bit hasty
However, I cannot be on you side

I don't wish to give you everything of me.
I cannot be what you want me to be.
We are not meant for each other but we deny it.
On several occasion we cry for each other.
All day long like this, it's the beginning
I think all have ended long ago
Don't want to be bounded again
Don't want to suffer again
Next path will be better

Love I cannot give everything
I cannot be what you want me to be.
We are not meant for each other but we deny it.
On several occasion we cry for each other.
All day long like this, it’s the beginning
I think all have ended long ago
Don't want to be bounded again
Don't want to suffer again
Next path will be better

This time we can be very happy

A Chinese song to share with you guys... Try to grasp the meaning of the song if you can.

Sam Lee (Li Sheng Jie) - A Brief Encounter (Ca Jian Er Guo)

The lyrics of the song, translated..

I've loved someone, loved until I was a little drunk
Tell me who you are, to be able to make me become so unusual
You're not tired, yet I've loved you to the point of exhaustion
I've never risked my own safety and sacrificed my all for anybody
I'm standing at the equilibrium point, but I still feel it's a little dangerous
Maybe it's because I can't see and can only use my intuition/feelings

He's not a good man, and is not a good lover either
To me, we are just two people who had a brief encounter
There are so many good men out there; without him, life will still go on
I will no longer make you feel lonely, and I won't let you feel more hurt
Listen to me, you must learn how to live well
Even if the future has many wrongs, at least you'll have my greeting and my warmth, accompanying you through the days

Listen to me, you shouldn't do this
Don't look at me and say you already know what you should do
You feel pain, and I'm willing to bear the pain with you
As long as you're not afraid to get hurt, I'll accompany you no matter how difficult it gets
I'm standing at the equilibrium point, but I still feel it's a little dangerous
Maybe it's because I can't see and can only use my intuition/feelings

He's not a good man, and is not a good lover either
To me, we are just two people who had a brief encounter
There are so many good men out there; without him, life will still go on
I will no longer make you feel lonely, and I won't let you feel more hurt
Listen to me, you must learn how to live well
Even if the future has many wrongs, at least you'll have my greeting and my warmth, accompanying you through the days

He's not a good man, and is not a good lover either
To me, we are just two people who had a brief encounter
There are so many good men out there; without him, life will still go on
I will no longer make you feel lonely, and I won't let you feel more hurt
Listen to me, you must learn how to live well
Even if the future has many wrongs, at least you'll have my greeting and my warmth, accompanying you through the days

At last, the exam week is over. After a long and tiring battle with the exam paper, I can finally get the rest that is so ever needed. For your info, I am a guy who loves sleeping but for the past week, I have not been getting sufficient sleep. Maximum sleep that I had for a night in the past week is 5 hours if I am not mistaken. Sigh, I could still recall that one of the girls in college actually said that I was getting thinner and thinner and I think the insufficient sleep is the main culprit. Is that a good thing? Certainly not. LOL. Any thinner and I will be blown away by the winds...

Nevertheless, the end of exams means the beginning of the holidays. Some welcome it, others just don't know what to do with their holidays to a point where even some claimed that they will lose their sense of direction. Well, it doesn't make sense to me anyway. There are plenty of things to do for the holidays. And come on, haven't you guys forgot that you were complaining about being so tired handling all those assignments? Grab this opportunity to take some rest and maybe reflect back on the past. For those who are workaholics, you may grab this chance to gain some work experience and at the same time earn some extra cash...hehehe.

*** continue pt 2 ***

I noticed that I have changed a lot lately. Previously, I don't listen to chinese songs and needless to say, how would I even get addicted to it if I don't listen to them. Now, time has passed. Things have changed. I listen to chinese songs and I listen to the same song repeatedly for hours sometimes. Guess I am going nuts. I can't seem to figure out what was the reason that is causing this until... finally I think I got the answers.

Looking back in the past, once, there was this one individual that managed to change my perception about motorcycles. I was a very determined but stubborn guy in the past (and still is now) and I thought no one could ever easily change my perception or mindset. However, guess I wrong. That particular individual did manage to change my perception and attributing the same factor for this "addiction to chinese songs" problem, I am pretty sure someone has influenced me in some way in terms of my music and song selection.

Haiya, I am sure I don't have to mention who that someone is. Just take a guess and you already have the answer. No matter who that someone is; the change in my perception about motorcycles did not last long, maybe because that someone has become a chapter in my life. On the other hand, I feel that the change in my music and song selection will last long and even become permanent. Why? Maybe because this "someone" is not a chapter in my life. Maybe this "someone" is different. Maybe this "someone" is more important and significant...

Summary: there are TWO significant individuals in my life. One changed my perception about motorcycles, the other changed my view/perception about chinese songs. One shall remain as history, the other... is the present and I hope she will be the future. Anyway, hopes are just hopes and shall remain as hopes. As one of my ex-classmates did mention to me, if it is yours, you can't escape from it even if you want to...

It feels like ages since I last blog. Life is so busy nowadays. It's exam week and everyone is rushing about looking for tips and hints. Well, I got a complaint to make here. As if I don't have enough problem of my own, I still need to handle others' problem. Geez... I need a break. I need a vacation.

Exam weeks are often the ugliest week in college. Accusations are thrown blindly and a person's good image and reputation is tarnished. I pity one particular friend. Like she has said and explained to me, a promise is a promise. She kept to her promise, but keeping that promise meant that she would have to be selfish. Well, no one ever said the world is not a cruel place to be in. Survival of the fittest. You have to have your own initiative to do your "homework" or you will be left out. It is not right for you to blame anyone for not helping you...

Exam weeks are not exam weeks without arguments. People argue due to stress and burnout. You study and study and study, not realizing how much time you have spent studying yet nothing goes in. Then you get mad at every single thing. You get provoked by every small tiny matters. You start cursing people. People start cursing you back. Bam!!! You have an argument. Childish isn't it? You tell me-lah... Haiz...

Exam week is often the week that you see people lose weight and have black rings on their eyes. Burning the midnight oil and skipping meals just for the sake of covering every single subject, going through every single topic and subtopics. Is there a point? Well, it's difficult to say. I am not saying that last minute revision doesn't work. My point is that studying wasn't meant to be so difficult and demanding. Anyway, I rest my case, can't say much... Why? I am one of the victims too; LOL.

Tomorrow another paper, the next day two more papers. There goes one more semester, and there are two more sems to go. Holiday for a month, repeat A MONTH, 30 DAYS... What am I gonna do during the holidays??? Haiz...

Still am addicted to chinese songs. I guess there is no cure for it... Don't care la, not bothered anymore if I listen to chinese or english songs. Not related though, I AM THE ONLY PERSON/GUY IN PLANET EARTH THAT NEEDS A LIL' MORE CONFIDENCE TO SPEAK UP AND TELL HER WHAT I NEED TO TELL HER, AND THAT IS WHILE SHE IS STILL HERE. OR... I am gonna live my life filled with regrets...