Life. How should we live our lives? Who determines the paths in our lives? How can we know that the choices we made yesterday will affect us in some other way today, tomorrow and the days ahead of us. But sad to say, that is not the issue here. One question that always lingers on in my mind, why are we put through all those unnecessary dramas? Some dramas are sad enough to made you cry and you cry. Certain other dramas, though they are none of your concern, affects you and hurt you so badly that all you could do is be a lil' emphatic and cry together with her but that wouldn't help it either.

Seriously, last night was the last straw for me. I admit I was drunk last night. Not tipsy but drunk. Ask anyone that was with me that night (you go figure out). Try to ask them what I did and what I would have done. Though certain thing I did were not something that I am very proud of that I can boast with my friends, but I have to say... if you are reading this, and if you think its you... Tell me what can I do just to make you feel better, and I swear to God that if I am able to do that task for you, I wouldn't blink an eye, I wouldn't think twice and I'll definitely won't hesitate.

To be frank I'm starting to miss that cheerful character of yours and second to none is definitely your smile. I couldn't remember when was the last time I see you smile. Not a smile that is fake, burdened by that issue of yours. A pure smile is what I meant. Hey, I know that some people will be puzzled with what I am writing here. Well, if you wanna know more... just ask me la okay. Don't go create stories. I don't have the whole day to write all the details here and the last thing I need is some irresponsible guy who make wild guesses and start spreading rumors faster than he/she can spread bacteria.

Anyway, back to the story. For anyone who knows me well, they will know that I have a soft spot for girls that cry. Hey, I am born that way and I don't intend to change. Probably I am unable to change. Sigh... Back to last night... if I can use only one word to describe last night... it has got to be either mad(pissed off) or sad(down/emo). The moment I saw you cry, phoof... I just went phoof... I don't know how to say it here. I can't find the appropriate words. CK is outta words. Seriously, I feel your pain. But please promise me... that your tears will all dry up, promise me that you'll be strong and you won't waste a tear for such a useless good-for-nothing scumbag. Promise me that last night was the final night that you cry because of him. For God's sake, he is enjoying at the expense of your pain and suffering. But that is if you read this blog, and if you think its directed to you... its you lo.

Haihz... busy talking and showing concern about others while me myself is too tired to take notice of the things happening in my own life. Kepo is what they all say but sad to tell them that I just couldn't help it but to show concern. Again here, few friends of mine should know what I am talking about. They should know why I am kepo. They should know why I show concern. And I think I have to eat my words. The past is not always the history. Ehhh... I know I am going to get into trouble with my post here... but who gives damn about it. I am always asking for chances and I ask for only one chance now. I hope I didn't cross the line.

*fingers crossed*

Something to add here... a chinese song by the title of "unguessable"... an excerpt from the lyrics...

| If a sudden far, a sudden close escape
| is the freedom you want,
| then I rather go back to the life of being alone.
| If a sudden cold, a sudden hot warmth
| is your excuse,
| then I rather to have never been serious with you.

I wonder if I'm the one with a sudden far and a sudden close escape, I wonder if I'm the one that is cold at times and hot warmth at other times. Judging by last night, I think I will just take the blame. Anyway, when is CK not at fault... never... CK is guilty...

Hmm... today is a very important day. The due date to hand up the services marketing assignment and... the company law presentation of course. Hehehe... So how did I performed for the presentation??? Hmm.. a lil' overboard but then again, the lecturer and I had developed chemistry and I received a perfect score. Would I agree with his verdict? or Did I deserve to get the perfect score?

Some would say that I am too arrogant, you guys may perceived me as being cocky but I will never agree with any lecturers who assess and give the student a perfect 10 marks. Okay, maybe I am crazy... Yes in my honest opinion, I do deserve to receive the 10 marks. For any of you guys who thinks that I don't deserve or entitled to it, then please comment of the reason why you say so. I am open to comments but please, only constructive comments. Just to add to the post, I was given the authority to ask people questions. Hmm... I love that feeling, love to be in control. HAHAHA... power crazy... obsessed...

Another topic to talk about, CK becomes the joke of the class. How...??? It's all because of the topic promissory estoppel. Why CK? Maybe because I am popular in class? LOL (a bit thick face here, as usual). Nonetheless, I wouldn't mind to be the subject of laughter in class. Everyone is equal in class and that includes me, so if Mr Gandhan can make fun of Sam, of course he can make fun of me. But what was it that bothers me? It seems as if I was okay with it. In fact I was. Just that... errr... I may be single, but I am not in the looking for category. And I quote from my creative friend, Jo who wrote something on the key chain on my bag, "promises to love faithfully"... sounds childish but what she said is true.

Hmm... who was the guy who said that I would be married to "her" in the future? Admit and report yourself now before I find out; LOL; was just joking. So who does this "her" refers to? Is it the same girl that I have mentioned a couple of times in my previous posts? NOPE. Both girls don't even know one another, not related to one another and most importantly, one cannot be compared to the other. With all due respect to "her", I do believe she is attractive in her own way, but there seems to be no chemistry or whatsoever that allows us to even be friends.

Next, I would like to apologize to my very very cute friend, Mei for not being able to attend her party. Anyway, I wish you Happy Birthday and best of luck. May all your weird but funny wishes come true. Hahaha. I dare to write this because I know you wouldn't be reading this also; LOL. Good news, I have come to reach good terms with dad. Ahh... finally. So how did we celebrate? Geez... I am very tired already but out of sudden, he took out his Cordon Bleu. Man, it really wakes you up but it really taste good. Hehehe... Shit, I broke my promise but who cares... Got to go bathe now. Until the next time...

Finally, out of no where, without any notice, CK decided to blog... Well, i think i got kinda bored sitting at home, staring at my laptop, browsing through my friends' blog, i decided it's time for me to join in and have some fun. Is blogging fun? I don't know but i guess i am about to find out...

So, it was kinda crazy last night. It was YCC's b'day and we were all at the beach behind Crown Prince Hotel celebrating his b'day. Though it was his b'day, someone certainly did something that pisses off everyone and that includes me. Nonetheless, kudos to you, YCC for being so patient. If i were you, i would have MURDERED that idiot. Anyway, let's not talk about the sad stories and focus on the crazy part; LOL

It was about 10.30pm when we reach there. Thank God we had my small cupchai a.k.a lorry kia to bring the foods to the beach. Not sure whether it was Jul or Nel, could be both of them bought 2 bottles of liquor(i dunno what name). I bought a cake (the f**k YCC was never my idea) and our cheeky friends just couldn't resist themselves from buying another nasty cake full of creams and smashed it on YCC's face. Not a bad way to start a party huh? So the whole geng sat there by the beach, drinking liquor, talking about the past during our days at SXI. Hmm... i really miss those days.

Slowly, people began to leave. First it was Aaron, then Terence fetched Jen and Jill??? back and Zi Hong left too. So it was only Jul, Nel, Chun How???, B'day boy and me. Wow, I am not sure about them but i was FREAKING HIGH. We left beach about 2 a.m. I still couldn't believe i managed to ride back home(in one piece) despite me being drunk. Maybe i was thinking of my loved ones, LOL. Forget that, the real nasty thing starts to happen after i reached home.

So, you guys would be wondering whether did my dad woke up and SLAP ME in the face for being so drunk? Thanks for having that thought, too bad it didn't happen. I wanted to bath, but i just couldn't. Slept by toilet bowl for half an hour. Somehow, it just reminds me of what i took for dinner. I saw some french fries, some chicken and lots of cakes. Damn, the feeling was awful... Nevertheless, i managed to drag myself to bed and i never woke up until it was about 8 in the morning. The next chapter begins...

Hmm... waking up in the morning, i thought i survived. Hell yeah, i did but my head weighs a tonne and i was feeling nauseous. Some of my friends told me it felt like being pregnant, LOL... I woke mum up and took some breakfast and then, i continued sleeping; nothing interesting happens after that; LOL. I told myself, LIQUOR IS BAD FOR HEALTH; I promise not to consume liquor anymore but who knows, i am human, i can break a promise as and when i like. We shall see whether i can keep that promise or not...

Well, my first time blogging, first post talking bout me being REALLY drunk for the first time, not a bad way to start huh??? College resumes tomorrow... Got to continue sleeping now... until my next post....this is CK, living his not so extraordinary life...