One song from one different artiste to share with you guys every week. It's my new resolution for this term, starting from today... until the end of my college semester.

Okay, so I shall begin with Devil In Me performed by Kate Voegele. Have you heard about her, or even checked her out in myspace or imeem? Well, you should and I am pretty sure if you're someone who loves music from the likes of Missy Higgins or A Fine Frenzy, you wouldn't be disappointed. Anyway, let me share with you guys how I actually discovered this song. To be honest, I have got to thank those people involved in the making of the series, One Tree Hill. By the way, I think it's the best and coolest series and I don't have to mention that it is also one of the most beautifully written series of all time. Err... maybe I am exaggerating here, hahaha... but truth be spoken, the background songs played during the airing of the series, for the past 6 seasons... they are all great songs by great artistes.

Back to the song, Devil In Me. I seriously prefer the acoustic version of this song. Don't bother to look for the studio version. You can't really hear the magic in Kate's voice. Well, be the judge and enjoy the video.

Far in the distance
This is the view from the other side
How did I let this pass me by?
You took me from granted,
Planted thorns in this garden of mine.
What are the chances my hope has died?
Please have mercy
You unnerved me
I don't deserve this pain.

So don't break my heart
I ain't never done
Nothing to deserve this
I'm torn apart
You've had your fun
Do you suppose I earned it?
Do you not see
How I'm begging on my knees?
Don't speak, don't breathe,
You bring out the Devil in me.

Thinking it over
Those were days dark as any night
The end of October felt like a life time
I had a suspicion
But I didn't want to believe you a liar.
You had a mission
To prove me right.

You took my trust
Ground it to dust
Found out I know better. Yea-yeah.

So don't break my heart
I ain't never done
Nothing to deserve this
I'm torn apart
You've had your fun
Do you suppose I earned it?
Do you not see
How I'm begging on my knees?
Don't speak, don't breathe,
You bring out the Devil of

And I don't wanna feel the pain
And I don't want another day
Shackled to your ball and chain, no...
You're entirely a pain
And I'm in quiet misery
All I can do... wait
All I can do is wait

So, I don't have to bear it
There is no charity in your heart
Couldn't you spare me, I've done my part? Yeah.

So don't break my heart
I ain't never done
Nothing to deserve this
I'm torn apart
You've had your fun
Do you suppose I earned it?
Do you not see
How I'm begging on my knees?
Don't speak, don't breathe,
You bring out the Devil of

So don't break my heart
I ain't never done
Nothing to deserve this
I'm torn apart
You've had your fun
Do you suppose I earned it?
Do you not see
How I'm begging on my knees?
Don't speak, don't breathe,
You bring out the Devil in me

Devil in me... (X3)

I feel like I am in the worst state of my life. On Wednesday morning, I got into an encounter with someone, I wouldn't call it a fight. I really tried to avoid that, but seems like its unavoidable. Anyway, its over. Next, as if I am not affected by that, I got sick later in the afternoon. Food poisoning, LOL. Guys, don't eat at mamak anymore. And my problems just wouldn't stop there. I have a re-sit company law exam today. Haihz... Why oh why is all these happening at the same time???

Talking about my health, its been degrading lately. The food poisoning yesterday was the worst thing that can happen to my health. I actually vomited 4 times in one night. That equals to 4 times of chest pain. Well, at the time I was puking, I just hope that someone would be there just beside me, patting my back. LOL. That's not too much to ask for right? But let's not talk about the past. I am feeling much better now.

Next, my re-sit paper. DOOMED. That's all I can say. DOOMED. I think I return 25 marks back to the lecturer. Sigh... I am sighing again. I am not hoping for much. I don't think I can get an A. Anyhow, it's always desirable and preferable to get an A. For now, I am just gonna be satisfied knowing that I will pass the exam. Yea,... achieving a pass feels great now. Guess I am easily satisfied ... maybe I am too contented with my life. Academic achievement is not that important to me anymore I guess. Sounds like I am giving up even before I finish diploma? I don't even know...

An update about my song choice and selection lately. A local artiste by the name of Juwita Suwito. I love her songs. Meaningful yet nice vocals. Go check her out in imeem or youtube. I am pretty sure you won't regret it. Okay... that's it. I gotta go get some nap now. Until next time, reporting here is CK who is not feeling well... but recovering.

Every single semester has its tale to tell. Every new group assignment tells us a whole new story, one that is known to many as the game of fighting for their group members. This is the time when we see the true colours of our friends, our course mates the very person sitting next to you.

In this game of fighting, some prevail yet others failed. We see the winners smiling triumphantly while the losers weep, slowly gaining back their confidence in socializing again. I think I know human well. Yet, I have not seen the best... or the worst a human can be. For God's sake, we are young adults, rational, mature young adults. Don't you guys think its childish to engage in such game of fighting, not for objects... but for human.

Its sad to see that these selfish yet immature people fail to see that we humans, have values and we are not objects. We are living creatures, we have brains to think, we have a heart/conscience that feels what's right and what's wrong and most importantly, we humans have emotions. A simple procedure of finding group members for assignment turns out to be a cruel, endless mind game. We have debating, we have negotiation... worst we have trading and compromising. WHAT THE HELL ARE THESE NONSENSES? We hear idiotic people saying "I will only take A if you take B". Why are there such question? No one has to take A nor B. A and B can find their own group if they are not choosy.

But yet again, we have to give such people the benefit of the doubt. Why are people avoiding A and B yet certain individuals are so "popular". I think it's time for A and B to think deeply and reassess themselves. Did they contribute in their previous assignment? If the answer is YES, and people are avoiding you, then come to me. I am more than willing to accept a hardworking member.

Talking about this shameful game of fighting in college, we also fail to see that those who actually suffer are those that are in between. Those who wants to leave yet they are tied up. Those who wants to speak up yet afraid of what they say might only make themselves an outcast. Enough guys. Please... stop this as soon as possible. You are just gonna make yourself the biggest joke in college fighting over nerds and pushing aside those who are not so ready to contribute.

ONE LAST THING TO SAY, at least you guys are lucky. You are given a chance to choose your group members. Back there, in the outside world... LEAVE if you can't cooperate or work together. YOU DON'T GET TO CHOOSE WHO YOU WANT TO WORK WITH... so grow up.

Hi guys, it's CK and I am back here to blog about my dearly loved college, KDU college Penang. First of all, I have to say I see changes. They, the changes may be too little too late, but at least I see hope in them and "them" refers to the school of business. Surprised? I know you guys don't expect me to write something nice about KDU; come one... I have be going against the college, cursing and swearing about them ever since this blog was started??? Well, things are getting positive lately. With the employment of Dr Kow (pronounced as "cow" and I hope I got his last name right), it seems as if there is compassion and a certain degree of sympathy in him that makes him seem honest in helping the students.

Anyway, I welcome Dr. Kow on board KDU college Penang. Dr., I hope you make changes to the college, and positive changes ... before it falls apart. If the college falls apart, the failure is definitely contributed by and without a doubt, the main culprit or culprits are crossed-eyed Mango and fat-ass Nee Nee. I gotta say, I do hate the college now... for making me resit or re-attempt the company law exam paper. Come on, what's the past is the past. The results were posted in KCN (ya rite, crossed-eyed Mango claims that there was a technical error) as if we care. If the paper was leaked out (that is what they claim), why can't you guys just use the set B? Why must the college re-hire a new lecturer (Saravanan) and ask the fellow to re-set a new copy of exam for us? I am going to be very irresponsible now and push the blame to the college; IT'S NOT OUR FAULT THAT THE PAPER WAS LEAKED OUT, SO DON'T PENALISE EVERYONE.

Sticking back to the same topic company law, the new lecturer (Saravanan) is not bad actually, in fact very good. I am not joking here. I have been to countless lectures presented by various lecturers (okay, maybe not that many lectures), judging by how he performed today, it's pretty amazing how he manage to pull off what seemed to be an impossible task, to prepare us for the re-sit exam paper this coming Thursday. 3 hours, an hour more than the expected 2 but still, I will give him the credit. Kudos Mr. Saravanan. It's such a shame I didn't have the opportunity to learn company law from you.

It's been quite a good week actually. There is no better way to start a semester than this, minus the company law case; LOL. Like I have said, I am starting see changes in college and I welcome them. It's just my lost that I am graduating soon and taking into consideration my previous encounters with the college, I have vowed not to continue my degree in KDU no more. By the way, the data communication lecturer (Guru, that is how he wants us to address him) is good too. Anyone that disagree with me can bombard my blog anytime. For the meantime, let us give KDU the benefit of the doubt. One step at a time... that is what they all say.

Before I end this post, allow me to confess... I LOVE PINK... PINKY PINKY...wahahaha... a few friends should know what I am talking about...

I was browsing through myspace.com this morning, looking for songs and info about the artistes. After a few hours browsing through myspace.com, I tried my luck digging up info about Andy Lau and surprisingly, he does have a page in myspace.com. I am not sure if he created it or his fans created it for him, but there was a song in the featured playlist that caught my attention. I totally fell in love with the song. Meaningful lyrics... soulful voice... a big round of applause for Andy Lau - Practice (Lian Xi)

If only one more second remained
It would lessen tomorrow's pain of missing you
I'd be willing to let go of everything
In exchange for the existance of any little bit of possibliity

Only a cup of dripping sand is left of happiness
Eyes wide open, watching each act* of sweetness
I'll never have that original commonplace possession again
Until now, it seemed like an helpless extravagant demand

I've already begun to practice, begun to slowly worry
Worry that this world doesn't have you
I've already told my tears not to cry any longer
But how should a love that is ending continue?

I practice daily, becoming familiar daily
With this city that doesn't have you
Trying to delete everything in this "two person world"
All the beauty and memories we once mutually possessed

Love is a 10,000 hectare forest
But you and I have lost our way
Didn't we agree to force our way out together?
How can I be the only one left to return, to return?

Ru guo liu xia duo yi miao zhong
Ke yi jian shao ming tian xiang ni de tong
Wo hui yuan yi fang xia suo you
Jiao huan ren he yi si si ke neng de zhan you

Xing fu zhi shen yi bei sha lou
Yan zheng zheng kan zhe yi mu mu tian mi
Bu hui zai you yuan lai ping fan wu qi de yong you
Dao xian zai jing xiang shi wu zhu de she qiu

Wo yi kai shi lian xi Kai shi man man zhao ji
Zhao ji zhe shi jie mei you ni
Yi jing he yan lei shuo hao bu ku qi
Dan dao shu ji shi de ai gai zen me ji xu

Wo tian tian lian xi Tian tian dou hui shou xi
Zai mei you ni de cheng shi li
Shi zhe shan chu mei ge liang ren shi jie li
Na xie ceng jing gong tong yong you de yi qie mei hao he hui yi

Ai shi yi wan gong qing de sen lin
Mi le lu de que shi wo he ni
Bu shi shuo hao yi qi chuang chu qu
Zen neng sheng wo yi ren hui qu Hui qu

To My Friends Who Are...........SINGLE
Love is like a butterfly.
The more you chase it, the more it eludes you. But if you just let it fly,
it will come to you when you least expect it. Love can make you happy but often it hurts,
but love's only special when you give it to someone who is really worth it.
So take your time and choose the best.

To My Friends Who Are............NOT SO SINGLE
Love isn't about becoming somebody else's perfect person.
It's about finding someone who helps you become the best person you can be.

To My Friends Who Are............PLAYBOY/GIRL TYPE
Never say 'I love you' if you don't care.
Never talk about feelings if they aren't there.
Never touch a life if you mean to break a heart.
Never look in the eye when all you do is lie.
The cruelest thing a guy can do to a girl is to let her fall in love
when he doesn't intend to catch her fall

To My Friends Who Are............MARRIED
Love is not about it's your fault, but I'm sorry.
Not where are you, but I'm right here.
Not how could you, but I understand.
Not I wish you were,
but I'm thankful you are.

To My Friends Who Are............ENGAGED
The true measure of compatibility is not the years spent together but
how good you are for each other.

To My Friends Who Are............HEARTBROKEN
Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut as deep as you allow them to go.
The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them.

To My Friends Who Are............NAIVE
How to be in love:
Fall but don't stumble, be consistent but not too persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand, and get hurt but never keep the pain.

To My Friends Who Are............POSSESSIVE
It breaks your heart to see the one you love happy with someone else
but it's more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you.

To My Friends Who Are............AFRAID TO CONFESS
Love hurts when you break up with someone. It hurts even more when someone breaks up with you. But love hurts the most when the person you love has no idea how you feel.

To My Friends Who Are............STILL HOLDING ON
A sad thing about life is when you meet someone and fall in love, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and that you have wasted years on someone who wasn't worth it. If he isn't worth it now he's not going to be worth it a year or 10 years from now. Let go.....

TO ALL MY FRIENDS
My wish for you is a man/women whose love is honest, strong, mature,
never-changing, uplifting, protective, encouraging, rewarding and unselfish.

adrijana, April 2, 2007 : American Foundation for the Blind

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Hi guys, CK wishes everyone Happy New Year. Talking about how fast time flies, it is already 2009. I have been in college for close to 2 years and yet it felt like yesterday; LOL. I have register for my new semester ma, hehehe....

A new year, a new beginning. I do hope so. I pray that 2009 will be a better year for me despite all those negative forecast and predictions. Sigh, starting my new year with such a bad exam result, the worst by far... I hope I can have all the luck I need.

Sorry guys, there is no update regarding the party on new year's eve. I didn't attended any party. I was staying at home, listening to Chinese songs while chatting with my another lonely friend from Kulim, hahaha... I cancelled my plans to follow my friends to the beach as I was not feeling well, physically and mentally. I know and I am pretty sure that if I had attended the party last night, someone has got to carry me home. I will definitely drink and drink a lot until I become unconcious. No one can blame me, my situation now is not allowing me to be happy and cheerful at all. I know it's stupid, but at least all those liquors and alcohol will do some help in making me forget all those sad stories in my life. Anyway, enough about this. The party is over. I didn't go. The end.

And by the way, my plan to ditch all my sadness failed. Come on, its gonna take more than 24 hours. Maybe I will never be able to ditch all the sadness. Nobody knows... not even me.

Hmm... this year is totally different compared the years before. I could still remember that I sleep at about 5am for last year's celebration. As I did not celebrate with my friends this year, I woke up at 7am. I am pretty sure some of my friends are still awake at the time I wake up. LOL. I was pretty bored waking up so early (couldn't really sleep), I went and disturb dad from his sleep. Hahaha... He almost killed me (not joking here), I woke him up to ask him to bring me fishing today. And yup, he did ... after he cooled down a little (he was still pissed he woke up that early on new year; LOL).

To be exact, we didn't really go fishing for fish today. Instead we were looking for prawns. Yupz, prawns... and HELL YEAH, today is really a fun day at the sea. You should have look at the size of the prawns. Unbelievable. We managed to caught about 2 kilos of white prawn (phek hea), about 2 kilos of flower crabs, a kilo of cuttlefish (sotong katak) and a lot of fish from various species such as catsharks a.k.a "yu bodoh", croakers a.k.a "gelama" and "tenggerong, chinese call sam ge", grouper a.k.a "kerapu", and some fishes that is unknown of to me and my dad, LOL. There was a few extra too. Let the pics do the talking. Sorry if the pics are a lil blur. It's taken with a very lousy camera phone; LOL.

A big parrot fish (about half a kilo). I was a bit slow in snapping the pic.
Dad chopped out all the fins ade; LOL.
A lobster. Oh Yeah.. a lobster... hehehe
A big tiger prawn, from the wrist to the elbow. And specimens of white prawns.

Something extra today. To be honest, I am kinda sad. I wanted to let it go. Too bad it has passed away. : (

There is nothing I can do anymore. I took and snap some pics just to share with you guys.

It's a seahorse. The pic is kinda blur. Its kinda cute, kinda small but I am kinda sad. Its dead now.